Darkness

Good morning Sherry, I am safe my ever present Guardian angel is watching me very closely. It's just one of those moods I guess where it doesn't matter who is around or how many are around I just want one person. That person does not want me in the life though so sometimes I let it get to me and upset me. I was with them through the toughest period of their life put my own life and family on hold to help them. It's been years now but on mornings like this morning I just want to talk to her and ramble and chain smoke and drink cuppa's until we burst. Thanks for checking in on me. You are worth your weight in gold lovely.

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sweetie I just saw your post so rather than explaining again I thought I would just tag you here. Love you @Lee82

Because of my current mood I am going to stay off here for a while, couple off hours, all day or longer 🤷‍♀️ I don't know. But I am being watched so I am safe, my misery doesn't need company. You guys are wonderful people and I thank you for your support. @Former-Member @NatureLover @Bunniekins @outlander @Shaz51 @Eve7 @Snowie

i love you 3000 Mel. @Lee82

https://youtu.be/7a28XA9osvE

Hey hun who are you talking about?

Wish I could come sit on your front porch drinking coffee and chain smoking with you all day long. I think we both could do with a really good chat and laugh at this stage.

I am here for you babe always. I love you more than you know honey.

Please try and be kind to yourself and keep that monster away babe. Please for me. @Former-Member

Please don't leave here babe. We are here to help and support you babe. Like you did for me but if you really don't want to stay on here I understand I just ask one thing pleaae just check in from time to time so I know you are ok. Even just a support. Please babe.

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I just listened to the song and no I don't accept any of that. You keep fighting babe. You DO NOT give up. You hear me. PLEASE. I will not be able to handle it if you go. I cannot deal with that. I know how damn hard it is babe just me I know. Please babe I hope you can hear me. I care way too much about you to lose you please don't do this.

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@Former-Member🌺🙏💕

I'm sorry about that person who is no longer there for you. The one you put your life on hold for. Perhaps you can explain a bit more about that to us when you come back.

I'm not a smoker, but would be happy to sit with you over a cuppa and let you ramble as much as you like. I wish that were possible. But within the constraints necessary here on the forums, I hope you feel you can ramble here as well.

Okay ... although I understand your decision to stay off the forum for a time, I am also worried about you. But I have to accept your assurances that you are safe, and that you will remain so. I'm relieved you have someone watching over you so closely. You deserve that. In fact you deserve much more.

Come back when you are ready. And perhaps while you are off forum, you could occasionally drop in a 'support' to posts. That would be enough to reassure us, including @Lee82, that you remain safe. As well as perhaps help to maintain a feeling of connection for you. That would be fantastic if you could manage that, even on a daily basis would be enough. Please take care, and I hope you will be able to return quickly.

I think your horse therapy is due to commence this Thursday ... I hope that goes really well.

Sherry 💕

I should not have posted that music clip, I am sorry. This is why I said I was going to leave for a bit. I didn't know weather it would be of a couple of hours possibly all of today. My mood is not good and I didn't want to bring anyone else down with me. Thanks for your support @Former-Member and your wise words.

Mel, I am sorry I have obviously upset you and that is exactly what I wanted to avoid. I am safe, Sean is with 24hrs day. Nat has told him not to leave my side even if I tell him to. I will check in regularly. Love you so much. I am so sorry. @Lee82

Yes @Former-Member , horse therapy starts Thursday

Okay @Former-Member 💖

No sorrys necessary for posting the song. Its such a poignant and hauntingly beautiful song. The words of which I suspect many of us here can relate to at times. I know I do. 😞

See you when you feel a little less broken, and able to return. I will welcome you with open arms.

Sherry 💕