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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I am sorry that you are feeling overwhelmed tonight my gorgeous friend. Is there anything I can do to help? I am happy to listen just like @outlander or I could just sit quietly with you.

Yes my worry is starting to increase for @Lee82 , it's been too long since she checked in and that is never good. I am being mindful of my emotions and doing little things to keep me calm, it's a little hard when she openly accepted my DID and has talked with at least three of my aspects. The youngest is 5 and she absolutely loves Lee and is finding it hard to manage right now. But hey it's the price we pay here I guess.

I will be here for you if there is anything you want to chat about or just Radom chats are good to.

Thank you for being the amazing person you are. 🌵❤️ @NatureLover ❤️🌵

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Awww, such a beautiful post from you @Former-Member . Thank you, I am OK ❤ I don't need to talk.

I'm sorry that your 5-year-old alter is struggling while Lee82 is away... Well done for trying to stay calm, and yes it is the nature of the forums. 😞

Thank you so much for your kind words ❤

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Thank you too @Shaz51 ❤

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that is ok @NatureLover
how about a hot cup of tea and just chilling out then with us here?
im about to make one so itl be my shout.
would you like one? @Former-Member @Lee82 @Shaz51 @Former-Member and all who may be following along

pain levels are still the same, cant tolerate a heat pack anymore so put it aside for now im debating whether having dinner is a good idea or not atm. ill start with a cup of tea though.

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Oh gosh, you've hardly eaten anything @outlander I think? 😞

Yes, I would like a cup of tea, thank you

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usually its one small meal a day @NatureLover
I had a small snack earlier (like a few c-ut up pieces of rockmelon) and im thinking I might've reached my limit for today/now at least.

of course coming right up ☕☕

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Yes thanks @outlander ☕👍

Just finished a light dinner here, and very ready for a cuppa. 😀

Hubby had a mate over for drinks this arvo, and is being 'difficult' now. I need to keep some distance for a while. So a cuppa with you guys would be wonderful, as well as calming. 😒💗👍

@outlander @Former-Member @NatureLover @Shaz51 @Lee82

Sorry to hear you are feeling a bit overwhelmed today @NatureLover . Is it forum related, or other? You have been putting a very large amount of time and effort into your CG duties lately. I hope you are not trying to do too much. 💜

@Former-Member and all your alters 😇💗

Sherry

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Thanks so much my beautiful amazingly strong friend. I can breathe again.

I love you 3000 Mel

But I love you more my Lee

@Lee82

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@Lee82

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White with Two please little one. 😘 @outlander

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