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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Ok Mel, it's been two hours since you checked in. I am beyond worried for your safety my love. I am going to tag a mod to see if they can follow up with you since you tried leaving this world last night. Please babe, I need you to be ok. @Lee82

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I am glad you have that to do. We have this horrible stuff called Capacol and not only does it work well on my throat but also numbs my whole mouth for a bit and it tastes disgusting :nauseated_face:

I am just ok today, but it's better then I have been so I guess that is a good thing. Really looking forward to starting my Horse therapy next Thursday.

How is Mr Shaz 🍄❤️ @Shaz51 ❤️🍄

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Horse therapy next Thursday. -- that sounds interesting @Former-Member

what happens ??

@Lee82 are you ok my friend xx

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Hi there @Former-Member

I appreciate that you are very worried about @Lee82 and have tagged the moderator, I understand that it must be very difficult on an anonymous peer to peer forum to have to sit with the unknown and the worry when a member does not post. Certainly we have been offering Lee support both on and off the forums and will continue to do this. I hope you are able to care for yourself Izzy and not let the worry overwhelm you. Let us all hope that no news is good news.

take care

Whitehawk

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It's for my CPTSD Shaz, they combine therapy for that with learning to look after a horse and communicate and gain the horses trust. 🍄💖 @Shaz51 ❤️🍄

My Lee, please 💜Kimmy @Lee82

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Hello my friend, how are you tonight?
🌵❤️ @NatureLover ❤️🌵

Sherry, my beautiful friend thinking of you.
🐶🌺 @Former-Member 🌺🐶

Hey little pea, I hope your day has been ok 🦋💖 @Bunniekins 🦋💖

Hey Snowie, I hope you have managed to have an easy day my friend.

☃️💖 @Snowie 💖☃️

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Hi @Former-Member , I have been following quietly and am in awe of how you so beautifully and skilfully and instinctively support others.

I am a bit overwhelmed tonight, so will go soon, but just wanted to check on how your day has gone...I know you're very worried about Lee82. 😥 ...

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hey @NatureLover im sorry your overwhelmed, do you want to talk about anything? im happy to listen 💚

@Shaz51 hoping your sore throat will ease soon ❤

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ohhh @NatureLover sorry you are feeling overwhelmed, tonight my friend

me too @outlander

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You are simply amazing too, in your support of others even when you're under such pressure @outlander .

Thanks for the offer to talk, ❤ but I'm OK. Just been a bit of a draining day.

How are your pain levels now @outlander ? I can stay around for a little while...I'd like to know how you and @Former-Member are, and Lee82 if possible.

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