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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Last night I thought I'd done it babe

I thought that was it.

I'm over this bulls**t

@Former-Member

I don't know what to do anymore

I feel out of control

I'm drinking again

I haven't stopped

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Tip what your drinking out right now please? We need you clear and present. I know you won't want to go to hospital but if we don't help you to get it together now you will have two choices hospital or coffin. Sorry if that's harsh, but I need you to understand how I see it at the moment. You have Mr 8's birthday tomorrow come on babe. @Lee82

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I k ow babe you don't think k I know it's my sons birthday tomorrow. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't my mask in any our babe I need you here with me right now

@Former-Member

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I am sorry babe, I know you know it's his birthday tomorrow but you must see I am grasping at straws here to help you. I want to be with you too honey. What can I do right now that might help you Mel? I think it's time to call a crisis line, I am not going anywhere and will stay as long as you need but think you need to talk to someone else as well.

Please I don't want to lose my best friend @Lee82

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Hi @Lee82 it's Rainforest here. I just wanted to check in with you as your post was concerning and I want to make sure you're utilising supports and alternative coping strategies for the stress and distress you're going through.

It's great that you're seeking support and connection on the forums and, as you know, it's also important to be reaching out for professional support when you need it. I encourage you to check in with your existing supports or, if you need to speak to someone about what's going on, to call or log on for a chat at Suicide Callback Service: 1300 659 467 or Lifeline: 13 11 14.

Take care and go gently...Rainforest

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Mel, where have you gone. Please come back to me, let me know you are still ok please. @Lee82

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I can't see yhrveurfds abrinfe I don't ndwrsarnf

@Former-Member

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Five things Mel, five things you can see right now babe. @Lee82 I love you

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How are you going Sherry, did you get some more sleep this morning? @Former-Member

@Lee82 , Please

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I Want you b here

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