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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Aww, thank you for your kind words @Former-Member ❤️

And I agree, I think @outlander is amazing too.

And I'm sorry you've hurt your shoulder and hip and back by falling over @Former-Member ... 😞

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Just remember you are stronger than believe my love. I have a coupe of things I have to get done today but I will check in regularly with you and see how you are doing. Baths are good for unfortunately 😞 but Sean will rub deep heat into my back if I can handle his touch this morning. 😟

please remember that I am always with you and I love you way too much.

🌸💖 @Lee82 🌸💖

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Take it easy today babe. Lots of self care and please try your best to be kind to yourself today Izzy.

I will check in on you and all our forum family throughout the day too.

@Former-Member @NatureLover @Bunniekins @outlander @Former-Member @Sans911 @Shaz51 @Pollyotter @Faith-and-Hope @Maggie @Lee71 @Angels333

thinking of you @Zoe7 and missing you greatly my friend. Hope you are ok.

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@Former-Member @Lee82 @Bunniekins @NatureLover

Very much thinking of you all today.

Sherry 😀💝🐶☕🌺🌸🍃🍂

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@Former-Member @Former-Member @Lee82 @NatureLover @Bunniekins hey my friends good morning to y'all.

DizzyIzzy it sound like you had a fall, I hope you're okay

XOXO ANGELS333

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@Angels333 Hope you have a good day today. I feel like you have been a little silent in the forum lately unless I just haven’t been looking in the right places.?i hope you have been ok my friend. 💕

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I have Mr8’s birthday on Monday and I am having a few people over which is freaking me out. I don’t know if I can handle that many people all at once right now. I’m not sure what to do. I can’t deny him a little birthday party as he is so excited but I feel like I am going to have a panic attack In front of everyone. It has been playing on my mind for days now and now that it is getting closer to the day my anxiety is in full gear. Please I need to find the strength to get through the next few days. 😞😞

how f**ked up is that to not be excited and happy about your sons birthday. Instead I’m filled with dread, anxiety and stress. My head is so screwed up. I feel it is beyond repair.

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@Lee82 @Former-Member @Former-Member @Angels333 @NatureLover @outlander and everyone passing today. Lots of these 💙💙💙💙💙 and these ☕️☕️☕️☕️

Take care, one and all.

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@Lee82 wrote:

I feel it is beyond repair.


This makes me sad to hear @Lee82 and I would like to say I don't think this is the case in any way... I think it's natural to be stressing about having people over and hosting a birthday party, I would be too.

Would it be possible to ask one of the other parents to come and help you?

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I will have my brother over most of the day so hopefully he can help. Its more my state of mind that worries me.

@NatureLover

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