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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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So why are your freaking out sweetie? @Lee82

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I am not sure what I did to deserve a friend like you. I love you 3000 @Lee82

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Just being you my friend. And being you is who I love so very much. You have a beautiful soul and are one truly amazing person.

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Awwh shucks ☺️ Thanks sweetheart. @Lee82 But what I really want to know is why are you freaking out over your psychiatrist appointment tomorrow

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He is just going to give me an ear bashing for cancelling our last appointment with him. I am in a very sensitive state right now and I don't think i will handle it very well. I feel he is going to quit on me and I will lose that support. I don't have enough support irl as it is. @Former-Member

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I am sure he wont quit on you babe, I am sure he has clients that are tougher to deal with then you just cancelling your appointment. I am positive things will be ok tomorrow. I wish I was there to be with you, I will be thinking of you while your there sending you all the love and support I can muster. 💖💖💖💖💖💖 @Lee82

ps if I stop replying it just means my meds knocked me out

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Yea I know your right just not thinking straight right now. The fact that I stopped all my meds too doesn't help and all the SH he will see. I dont want him throwing me into hospital. I feel like I'm sitting In the middle where I can either be brutally honest with him and risk hospital or just give him the basics and perhaps not get the full benefits of his help. I don't know what to do.
anyway babe you really don't need all this bulls**t right now.
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I wish you the sweetest of dreams beautiful. I hope you sleep till the morning.

love you 3000, always and forever

❤️ @Former-Member

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I feel sick, have as enough.

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You ok? @Former-Member
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