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Darkness

Unknown userMember23 Apr 2020, 7:03 pm AEST

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Unknown userMember28 May 2020, 8:06 pm AEST

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Sorry Mel, it's been a hellish day 😞 physio didn't go well for me as I am still feeling the effects from my panic attack and can't stand anyone touching me. Spent the rest of the day in meltdown mode, poor Sean 😞 Things have settle a little tonight but my mind is playing tricks on me still. How are you doing my love? @Lee82

@Bunniekins , 🥰😘

@Snowie , not a great day my friend but thank you for asking. Congratulations on your new role, you are already amazing but I think you are going to be a perfect community guide my sweet friend.

@Shaz51 , hey lovely I hope your infection has passed and there is no need for more antibiotics. Thank you for being a wonderful friend. (I don't know what I did but it wanted to say a wonderful fries 😂) Hope you and mr Shaz have had a good day.

@Former-Member, I had to try hard to give Nics your cuddle this morning because she was mad at me because it's day 2 and no walkies 😂 I am sure Holly is a much more forgiving puppy so please give her lots of hugs from me.

@NatureLover , I hope you have had a good day lovely.

@outlander , I hope you have had a better day than yesterday little one. Sending you huge hugs and I have everything crossed that your specialist appointment goes well tomorrow