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ED recovery just too hard

The-red-centaurSenior Contributor18 Apr 2020, 9:55 pm AEST

ED recovery just too hard

I Fn give up. I thought I could try to eat nice things for my birthday. I even ate a Tim tam.

But fck I want to die now. Calculating how much ate scares me is much.

My dietician is pushing me really hard. I can't do it anymore. I'm gaining weight and I just can't deal with that. The rules from my professionals are destroying me. I can't do it. I won't do it.

Why does every birthday turn into a disaster. Proves I should have died when I was a baby like I nearly did.

I'm sorry I just....can't..

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor20 Apr 2020, 5:51 pm AEST

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@NatureLover I'm taking a break for a bit....so if you don't see me don't worry.

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor20 Apr 2020, 6:00 pm AEST

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@The-red-centaur Thanks for letting me know. Please take care of yourself. I'm hoping for a quick recovery out of this despair for you. I know from experience it's not always quick at all, but I hope you can hang in there till it arrives.

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor20 Apr 2020, 7:08 pm AEST

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Hello @NatureLover

Sorry I did not see your tag til now.... and the thread has moved on.

@The-red-centaur

You matter. Sorry you are at ED.

Take Care

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor25 Apr 2020, 8:59 am AEST

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@NutureLover just an update on my ED. I put a referral into a psychologist who specialises in eating disorders for teleheath counselling. I'll be seeing her in Friday.

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor25 Apr 2020, 6:35 pm AEST

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I did something stupid today...
I went out and bought scales. The number made me cry...I've gained and now I want to die.

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JynxModerator25 Apr 2020, 6:38 pm AEST

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Hey @The-red-centaur,

Sounds like this has hit you hard, I am going to drop you an email to check in.

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor25 Apr 2020, 6:41 pm AEST

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Hi @The-red-centaur , thanks for your update which I only just saw - the tag didn't notify me. That's good you are seeing someone for your ED. That seems very quick that you got in to see her! Are you OK with it being a Telehealth appointment?

I'm sorry about how you are feeling right now. I hope you will be OK.

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor25 Apr 2020, 6:52 pm AEST

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@NatureLover I did a typo in the tag that's why 😂 sorry

It's someone from the other side of the state, teleheath is the only way I'm able to see someone. And with covid19 it's better for everyone.

And don't worry about me ok.

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor25 Apr 2020, 7:00 pm AEST

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@The-red-centaur OK, that's good you don't mind the Telehealth. I hope the appointment goes well next Friday. It's good you're looking after yourself.

I hope you will be safe as you wait for the appointment...

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor29 Apr 2020, 9:56 pm AEST

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Can't I just give up and let my ED finally k*ll me. I'm so tired. In DEM (emergency) again coz I'm so fucked up. Why do I even bother tbh. Shoulda just done the fcking job instead of contacting lifeline. F this shit.

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