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ED recovery just too hard

The-red-centaurSenior Contributor18 Apr 2020, 9:55 pm AEST

ED recovery just too hard

I Fn give up. I thought I could try to eat nice things for my birthday. I even ate a Tim tam.

But fck I want to die now. Calculating how much ate scares me is much.

My dietician is pushing me really hard. I can't do it anymore. I'm gaining weight and I just can't deal with that. The rules from my professionals are destroying me. I can't do it. I won't do it.

Why does every birthday turn into a disaster. Proves I should have died when I was a baby like I nearly did.

I'm sorry I just....can't..

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor20 Apr 2020, 8:31 am AEST

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@NatureLover being safe is one thing that probably won't happen today.

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor20 Apr 2020, 8:40 am AEST

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@The-red-centaur I am very worried about you. Please, please be safe for the moment. Just 1 hour at a time.

I am new here so don't know what to do, so I will tag some people to ask for help: @Shaz51 @eth @Appleblossom

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor20 Apr 2020, 8:48 am AEST

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@The-red-centaur I hope you will consider calling Lifeline (13 11 14) or the suicide call back service (1300 659 467). Your life is valuable. I also wanted to say that I have been intensely suicidal many times before, and tried it 3 times when I was younger, but now am happy to be alive - it's definitely worth it to stay alive. Things will get better, although it doesn't look like it now. The most important thing is to stay safe for the moment till the suicidal feelings pass. Please stay safe.

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Unknown userMember20 Apr 2020, 8:51 am AEST

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Hey there @The-red-centaur I am about to send you an e-mail, please keep an eye on your inbox.

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor20 Apr 2020, 12:17 pm AEST

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Seriously what's the point.

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor20 Apr 2020, 12:41 pm AEST

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I'm happy to see you, @The-red-centaur .

I know you can't see any point at the moment. But you are worthy of a good life (everyone is)...and things will get better if you can just hang on.

@Former-Member

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Unknown userMember20 Apr 2020, 1:08 pm AEST

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Hi @The-red-centaur I can hear things are really tough right now. Do you think it might be time to reach out to one of the following helplines?

Lifeline - 13 11 14

Suicide Callback Service - 1300 659 467

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor20 Apr 2020, 2:33 pm AEST

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Eh...I'm in emergency getting medical attention. Really don't see the point but eh.

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor20 Apr 2020, 3:17 pm AEST

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@NatureLover I'm gonna be ok. It doesn't matter.

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor20 Apr 2020, 3:39 pm AEST

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@The-red-centaur I'm so glad you're getting help. And it does matter, and I'm glad you're going to be OK. Hope you can hang in there till you start feeling better.

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