Numb again

@Lee82 I'm sorry to hear that, anything I can do?

Hi @Pollyotter , how are you? Are you ok too?

Thanks @Former-Member im just all over the place at the moment. Feeling extremely exhausted and I have a pretty bad headache. What did you get up to today?

I had written what's going on on another thread so I have just copied it here for you to read. I originally posted on Tough Times

@Pollyotter

I feel like a failure in every part of my life. I have always been one. Mum would call me that all the time. I failed my marriage, I failed my job, I failed my studies, I failed my friends and family and now I am failing at being a mum.
this is not enough for them. They deserve so much more. It gets hammered into me all the time. You shouldn't let them do that, you should be doing more of this, they need to do that, they need to do this. It's hard to think any other way when you have someone telling you all the time what your doing wrong. I wish I had the strength to stand up to her. F**k how I wish I could tell her everything. Everything I have been through and everything she has put me through. Living here and seeing how she treats her other daughter is like a dagger straight through my heart. I get reminded constantly how proud she is of her and everytime I get flashbacks of my own childhood of all the times she would say I have disappointed her. Living here is not good for me. I need to go back home

@Pollyotter that's true. I'm okay

@Lee82 I'm sorry, I hope you feel better. I'm okay

Thank you @Pollyotter . Sorry for the late reply. I fell asleep for a little. Was definitely much needed as I can't remember when I last had more than 2 hours sleep.
if your still awake and want to chat I am here and probably not going anywhere for a while.
if not I hope you have fallen asleep and have a restful peaceful one till the morning. 🌸

Yea I'm glad I had a bit of sleep but the down fall is I am still awake now and sitting here with all these thoughts in my head.
I think being productive and staying distracted is the key even if that means doing those things at the wrong time like when you should be sleeping but I guess that is better than the alternative

@Pollyotter

do you think you can get some sleep now?