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@Former-Member

I am not actually but I am going to keep you save from that. Not because I don't trust you but because it's bad . I hope lifeline helps you . I have hung up as I have been waiting for a long time

@Pollyotter I'm sorry you didn't get through to Lifeline. Would you like any numbers and/or websites to look at instead?

You can tell me if you wish, but I'm not forcing you. I'm here to listen and support you the best I can though.

I hung up the Lifeline webchat because the lady was nice but wasn't helpful and took ages to reply so I thought "screw this" and ended the chat.

I've tried them before a few times, different times of day and night but can never get through. Thanks anyway @outlander

@Pollyotter anything I can do?

@Former-Member

@outlander

@Lee82

@Zoe7

@Former-Member

Hey there guys . its 04:57 and I have just come down from a cluster of panic attacks and flashbacks. My mind is in so much pain and my heart isnt far behind. It is amazing to me how something like the words of someone can crippel you like this. I have grown used to things like body spray or being alone with an un known male setting me off but not the threat of the action.

My body is reacting in a way that I dont know and I think that freaks me out the most . I have gone into the dark place several times tonight and I was alsmost this close to phoning 000 .

I must admit that even while sitting here writting this I am not doing good. in my imaginatoin I am just dreading the whole thing . What if it really happens.I know driving myself crazy with what ifs isnt a good idea but I cant calm my mind. I dont know if you know vaping but I have smoked a 100ml bottle of vape juice in 24 hours .

Luckily I was in my bed the whole time tonight so I will not be walking funny .

I hope you all are doing well and are taking care of yourself

I am so sorry you went through that last night beautiful. I'm so sorry I wasn't around for you. 😞

I hate that you are in so pain babe...you don't deserve to be going through any of that.
please try and take it easy today and be kind to yourself. Try and do some self care and check in here from time to time. I will be thinking about you all day today my friend and I will be around the forum as much as I can.

Sorry I forgot to tag you in this post so I am reposting @Pollyotter

I am so sorry you went through that last night beautiful. I'm so sorry I wasn't around for you. 😞

I hate that you are in so pain babe...you don't deserve to be going through any of that.
please try and take it easy today and be kind to yourself. Try and do some self care and check in here from time to time. I will be thinking about you all day today my friend and I will be around the forum as much as I can.