Is anyone around tonight? Depressed and suicidal

I emailed SANE asking if this whole thread can be deleted. You're right, it could trigger people, I'm sorry for not putting a trigger warning on it, that was just me forgetting, I am weary of others feelings, personal things to deal with, etc.

I'll just go off these forums for a while, I'm sorry for upsetting people and if I did anything else wrong, I didn't mean to. But please don't be angry with me, I'm sensitive and I can't help that. I do go on web chats like Lifeline when I feel quite down. I try to go off social media but I get bored and I like to keep myself updated with things, such as music or something. I do want to support you all myself, I guess I'm just not in a proper headspace hence me saying the wrong things and regretting it but that's my fault not anyone else's. I am trying to seek professional help apart from my Psychiatrist and the GP, I really am. I've been sitting here looking at websites, etc. that I can try.

Can you all please forgive me? I won't do it again. Next time if I want someone to talk to on the forums I'll just say hi or look at the social spaces or something. I understand what I did wrong, none of it was intentional. please don't be mad with me and angry and say hurtful things, I understand that I may have done the same though and I'm sorry for doing that and misunderstanding.

I'll take a break from the forums for a while, I might come back and just scroll through but not talk to anyone. I apologise, please don't be mad at me anyone.

@CheerBear @Snowie @Former-Member @Eden1919 @TheVorticon and others I tagged

@Former-Member This is just a suggestion and feel free to ignore it but maybe to avoid confusion if you are just wanting to chat post in a thread it can be your own thread that is in the social section saying that you are just hoping to have a chat whenever anyone is around and save the somethings not right forum for when you are having a hard time with something in particular that you want support with. Cause posting in here makes it seem like you are in a crisis not that just just want to have a chat... not mad just suggesting ideas to avoid confusion you can take it or leave it I will have no feelings either way.

Understandable, I emailed asking if this thread can be deleted, it was just a mistake on my behalf. I have tried to distance myself from people whether it's facebook, any forums, anything, but then some people get mad at me (not any of you, just some people I know). So I can't win really.

Again I'm sorry I really didn't mean to annoy and trigger anyone, it's my honest mistake and I'm deeply sorry. Please forgive me.

@Eden1919

Not going to bother tagging anyone else incase it doesn't work and if this thread is deleted

@Former-Member @Jupiter @Former-Member @Former-Member @Former-Member @Former-Member @Former-Member @sherpa09 @Bookworm @Wenna (tagging all mods that I know about), please check the emails I just sent asking for this entire thread to be deleted please.

From now on I'll just talk in the social zone or if someone tags me I'll talk with them, and stay on topic to their post. Or if I feel like posting I won't tag anyone and wait for people to approach me. If I post something triggering which I'll try not to I'll make sure to put a trigger warning on it this time.

My sincere apologies to everyone, I take full blame and responsibility for this. I really never meant to hurt anyone, trigger them, make them mad, upset, anything like that so please understand. I've been looking at other mental health websites, etc too. Thanks, please delete the thread or lock it or whatever you can do.

@Former-Member

no one is mad with you and please stop apologising all the time!

We are just here giving you some suggestions hun.

Starting a new thread where you can document your journey and you can check in when you can sounds like a good idea.

If you start a new thread please tag me in it. I am very interested in how you are going.

Just keep being you, stop apologising because you have done nothing wrong and keep posting here if it helps.

Thanks @Snowie . I emailed the mods to delete this entire thread or lock it or whatever they can do. I just feel really bad especially because @TheVorticon said it reminded him of when he was younger. I really didn't mean to trigger and upset anybody or anything bad, truly. It won't happen again, anything that I uninentionally did wrong, I promise.

Hey there @Former-Member,

This is one of the moderators. I can hear you're not feeling good about this thread and you've emailed in to see if we can take it down for you. Just to let you know that mods and community managers have an up to 48 hour turn around for responding to emails. I know that can seem like a long time sometimes, but just to let you know why sometimes you might get a really quick response and sometimes longer.

It's tough being in a new space and getting to know what you can expect. I know it can feel like the end of the world when we feel like we've 'mistepped' in a new context. But maybe another way to think about it is that it's learning. No one expects people to know everything about the forums right off the bat, so please go easy on yourself.

Take care

Tortoiseshell

Thanks @Former-Member and understandable about the 48 hours from the mods.

Are you able to lock the thread or something in the mean time please so no one can comment on it or something?

You have every right to vent whenever you want to about any subject @Former-Member

That is what this forum is all about. To have a say when things are not going well for yourself. No matter how other forumites are feeling at the time we are hear for support and to listen (or in our case to read lol) to what you have to say. No one will mind if they have things going on as well. All of us do day to day and that is why we are on here, to help get us through the day.

Footnote: I did make it through my first day back at work..........but I did realise when I got into my work I had not missed the place at all.......

Hope you are feeling better today my friend.

Just wanted to say @Former-Member I'm not upset or anything. I choose what I read or reply to, and sometimes it's stuff like this and that's OK. No need to feel bad about anything related to me. 🙂

(Sorry to bump the thread when you're trying to get it closed... But I thought it was important for me to clarify somewhere.)