Is anyone around tonight? Depressed and suicidal

Thanks @Appleblossom and everyone else in the thread.

I'm going to try and take some time away from the forums for a bit, maybe social media too, I don't know. March is also a hard month for me because on the 15th it will be the anniversary of a loved ones passing, so that's always hard, aswell as birthdays and other anniversaries of other loved ones passings.

I'll take on board everyone's suggestions. I might try to do my jigsaw puzzle tomorrow or something else, I don't know. I'm not sure if I'll return or if I do, when. Maybe I might feel a bit better when I see my psychiatrist since that usually helps me a little.

Anyway, apologies again for everything everyone. Bye for now, I'm just taking a break. Can't be bothered tagging everyone again

Hiya @Former-Member ....

Jigsaw puzzles are probably my favourite go-to as a distraction and time-out. There are others here who enjoy them too.

I am sorry to hear that March is such a difficult month for you ..... gently, gently with yourself Hon ......no need to apologise for anything at this end, but of course you are entitled to how you feel, and whatever way you need to express that at the moment. I hope with time, and more feelings of acceptance, you will feel less need to apologise as much, but being kinder to, and more accepting of yourself, is a learning curve, tweaking whatever happened in our lives that causes us to be highly self-critical.

Looking forward to seeing you when you feel up to posting again ....,

💐💕

Evening @Former-Member

No matter what you want to talk about, no matter what the subject I am hear to chat and to give support if required.

And please don't feel bad about talking about your situation. I have vented about having hard times and not dealing with life too well. And everyone here was nothing but helpful and after that I did not feel like I was the only one in the world feeling this way.

In your post you said that you were young and foolish.................I am old and foolish so don't feel so bad lol. We are in the same boat lol.

We are all here for you my friend........................always.

Hugs @Former-Member for dealing with anniversaries. Find a way of honouring your loved one and your unique relationship with them.

DO whatever works for you. FInd your own safe place and style.

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Hi everyone, just popping in to say hello, and apologies for not replying back to any of you until now, I had a bit of a break from the forums (all of them) and Facebook. Well I've been checking in and reading stuff but not replying so I guess that doesn't really count as a break sort of.

Anyway, thank you all for your kind words, I appreciate it, I'm sorry for all of that stuff beforehand though but I suppose it's over.

I see the GP tomorrow, I don't know what to say and what she'll do. I guess we'll see.

I also went to visit my Grandparents' grave at the Cemetery yesterday (10/03/2020), a 3 hour drive there and back but that's just what i do to pay respect. It's the anniversary of my Grandpa's passing on the 15th but I thought I'd go early.

About the Jigsaw, I've done a little bit of it, not much, it's so hard and frustrating haha. I'll try to do more tomorrow if and when I have time.

Thanks again, I hope everyone's well and my apologies for all the stuff beforehand once again.

Take care everyone. Hopefully it comes up for everyone in their notifications since I typed out all of the usernames again.

Thanks @MDT . Well it's depressing of course and it was a long tiring drive, but they're just buried there because my Nana was born and grew up in that area, a really small country town. I've been there a few times, not much there but that's their wishes. And my Grandpa with her of course. My Nana passed away in 2013 and my Grandpa in 2015. These are my Mum's parents, my Dad's parents passed away before I was born unfortunately.

But yeah it was still nice to visit I guess although I obviously wish they were still here. I also put some flowers on my Nana's Brother's grave because he lived there too and he was always nice to me, he passed away in 2014 or something? I'm not sure but I think it was before my Grandpa.

Yeah I'm not sure what to say to the GP, I'll keep you all updated. I'm going to try and ask if I can change my meds I guess but then she has to get consent and ask my Psychiatrist and I don't know how that will work, it's frustrating. The side effects seem to have gone from the meds but they still don't seem to be working as in making me happier. Not that I've noticed anyway. It's been about 2 weeks since I started this dosage and my Psychiatrist said if they don't work after 2 weeks try a higher dosage but I just want to change the meds all together. Who knows?

Take care.