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BlueBaySenior Contributor
I am having thoughts constantly about being so destructive when I next see my psych. I can visualise it so much, so clearly that I want to do it.
I visualise that I feel so angry inside that I release all this emotion at my session. I start throwing things around, screaming, kicking things etc etc.
I am seeing my psych this coming Tuesday.
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Crazy_Bug_LadySenior Contributor
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SnuchuSenior Contributor
Throwing things and screaming at your session is never a good idea... Either they kick you out, or take you to the hospital after calling cops.
I'm sorry to hear about your struggles though, hugs.
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JoseJonesSenior Contributor
@BlueBay, it sounds like this desire to be destructive has been a long time coming, is that right? Is there something about the sessions you've been having that have left you feeling this frustrated? What other ways can you resolve that?
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BlueBaySenior Contributor
Hi @Crazy_Bug_Lady @Snuchu @JoseJones
I think you're right @JoseJones it probably has been brewing in me for a while. I don't think my psych understands me enough; i don't think he gets me. He is always so 'easy going' when I talk to him; it's like he doesn't take me serious enough.
You know @Snuchu maybe in my head that's what I want. Someone to put me back into hospital. Because I have wanted that for a while and he keeps saying no.
But the thoughts of being destructive, I haven't done yet. But I so wish I could.
Maybe it's my inner child screaming for help, love and nurturing. something i didn't get especially after being sexually abused.
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BlueBaySenior Contributor
Hey @Snuchu
How are you coping in hospital? I have been thinking about you.
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Crazy_Bug_LadySenior Contributor
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SnuchuSenior Contributor
@BlueBay, I've been officially discharged just yesterday, I'm doing well but I'm off to a bad start because I missed night meds and I relapsed on meth. I'm gonna tell my nurse though. Otherwise, I'm doing okay mood-wise.
Maybe you should go ahead and be destructive, if you want to be thrown in the hospital... but be wary of cops, and hopefully they don't take you to the cells.
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BlueBaySenior Contributor
Yeah @Crazy_Bug_Lady
I think I will write down what my destructive thoughts are and why I am feeling like this. I will give him the note and see what he says.
Thanks @Crazy_Bug_Lady
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BlueBaySenior Contributor
Well take care @Snuchu, hope things get better for you. Telling the nurse is a good step, it means you are owning up to what you did. And that is a good start.
Good luck. xxx
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SnuchuSenior Contributor
Thanks, @BlueBay, good luck to you too. I'm keeping you in my thoughts! 🙂
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