Sleeping too much

Yes, it is good to get out of the house, my Saturday work is hard (physically) but really gives me something to look fwd to, well, some days I'd rather sleep, but it makes me get up and weekends gave always been so lonely otherwise. Its good only having one offsider Saturdays. I have vague ptst re PAST bullying in the workplace, but when its one on one - ' they ' cant ganging up on me or whisper behind my back. OK, that sounds a bit paranoid but at the same time - it happens, a lot. Its not all in ones head ("how i chose to think about it), and sure, part of coming to terms with hyper vigilance, blackdog perceptions and interpretations, low self-esteem, and surrounded by abusive, manipulative control freaks... well, the waters get very murky. The shop during the week has triple the staff and they buddy up leaving me out (its always that way) but 1:1 we have to get on and I like it.

Still, i have some trouble filtering whats past, whats blackdog and whats really happening outside my inner world filters (re anxiety, depression, bpd, ptsd), better to start tossing out these labels sometimes, just be me / us. What do ya think @NotLabelDefined ? Anyway, Sat works well for me (helping a friend out) re short shift and spine degeneration etc, and the 1:1. My dpt manager (boss) was my offsider today, made me stay on the ball, she showed me more skills, stepped up my security status, answered a buildup of questions i had and she gave me more responsibility - a sign of trust and acceptance I guess. Pretty good feeling. And I love customer service, casual light chitchat and helping, all sorts, getting my confidence back.People talking to me - its amazing lol
@Former-Member, so glad about your sons grad ,- proud mum moment I know 🙂 You must be a good mum, take a little credit there!. Did you have to stop studies with your recent hospital admission? If so, you're not beating yourself up over it are you? Soz - I don't keep u with all the threads well, but think of you oft_ i do xox

I really tthink you need to consider scaling back work commitments, semi retire maybe, for health reasons. Or be extra proactive with stress management.-- i think you are totally right @Former-Member, my mum amd MIL are a bit worried too

Love a green tea or a chamomile tea please

hello @Former-Member

It is great that you love customer service work. That is the key ingredient to being good at the job.

Sounds like you are a natural and dont need to worry about others. you can see the feedback in the smiles of your customers. your confidence will come back. be proud not everyone has the gift.

isolation not good that is what i did for 6 months and it just feeds depression.

walking, is best for me.

chamomile this end

water boiled just leave the bag in the china cup xx

Yeah @Former-Member. I did have to give up my studies for now. Its not helping me getting out of my 4 walls. I think a big part of me died when I had to give it up. I'll get back to it. Just not sure when. Sleep well tonight after your big day 💜🤗