Sleeping too much

Trying hard to read through the lines @Former-Member

I thought your son hadn't turned up but he's due later

Sometimes things just don't work - I guess - but feeling so rotten and lonely doesn't mean that you have to grow up - aw - the things that people do hurt - no gift - just a card - no love - just not what costs so little not happening

I'm praying it goes well with your son later today Tawnz

Dec

Just nattering @Former-Member to keep the convo flow going .. you butt in whenever

We had our chilled soup .. I got the nod .. and then he realised it really is rich .. on the tum .. so put half eaten big bowls back in fridge .. to come back to later. I told him generally it would be in a small bowl, but he doesnt 'get' small bowls ..

Anticipation can be tricky ..

I guess we both have low expectations

Thinking of you

and you @Decadian

and you @Zoe7

and you @PeppiPatty

and you @Faith-and-Hope

and everybody else I havent mentioned who reads this ..

"the hidden reader"

Hi @Appleblossom

Just nattering - I don't like eating from a bowl later after it has had a spoon in it - not a clean spoon but one that was being used to eat/drink the soup

Dd, sil and gd came up with breakfast - and bought these cute little home made muffins, zuchini, ham and cheese - very light and very yummy - and seeing as I have vegetable spread they brought their own butter - and we had coffee -

And we had pressies - it's a big thing with us - we give and receive several pressents each

And I went though my stuff to see what I have that is okay - good actually - but what I am not using, a dish rack, a sandwich toaster and my bed-lamp that is good though it has no globe - and gd is grateful - she is setting up home in a small flat this coming week and there is so much required to start with

Remember the days when we set up house with the stuff we had in our own bedroom and whatever the family could gather together. I want her to have everything as new as possible - and she is my only bio grandchild so I can spoil her by spending some money on her next week

Brunch was late - it is time to eat - I had to wash the griller before I cook some chops - one thing I had is cleaning that griller but I prefer grilled meat

Just yakking away here to keep it going

Dec

@Former-Member

Now that's what I call a gravy boat .....

Can smell that roast from here @Former-Member ❣

He asked me to make vichyssoise

Cold chilled creamy potato leek onion and garlic .. sprinkled chives on top

We have finished it now

I guess I have zero expectation .. he took it later into his room .. we are both quietly going along with plan .. not rocking the other's boat .. I dont usually leave cutlery in food ..Dec

We are a long way from nanna's silver and fine porcelain .. but it ended up producing superficiality re manners and social responsibility in her offspring .. poor thing she had 9 .. so manners at the table were it for parenting ..

I asked him to help me peel prawns for the the next course

I am not insisting that he finish dishes or move things off the table .. I may end up doing the peeling myself but I would like him to help

I am doing the minimal

I am done with doing the imagining and creating for others. it is what it is. They can come to the table apparently I over compensated .. well not any more.

Dont want any bad vibes ..

Just existing and getting through calmly

How are you going @Former-Member

Hi @Decadian, @Appleblossom, @Faith-and-Hope, @Former-Member

I'm finished for the day. I survived my first Christmas catering totally on my own with the boys. I tried so hard not to have any expectations, it wasn't Christmassy but we had a nice meal. My dad sponsored the fish for the kids and I to have and I bought a ham. Really simple but it was all I could cope with. The boys behaved enough when my parents arrived, phew. S3 did a plus 1 at the 11th hour again but it was ok. I managed to hold in what I am hanging on to for today, Something has been seriously messing with my head, it's the first thing one of my kids has done that I am very, very ashamed of. I'm so disappointed. And I survived the afternoon tea.

Keep hanging in there @Appleblossom. I can see you are doing the best you can on survival mode. Good job. Thinking of you.

@Former-Member. I'm not sure what to make of S1. I hope the rest of the day goes better for you. I am so disappointed for you too. I know it's no consolation but hang in there for the future relationship with your son. I'd seriously like to come and smack his tush but I'm gathering it would to be to no avail and hes not in a place to get it. He still needs time @Former-Member but I know you have needs to so my heart is breaking for you in this moment too. Stay strong girl, it has to get better over time.

sending hugs to you 💜🤗

Hi @Former-Member ....

Having been trying to post for a while .... wifi playing up here ....

So sorry to hear your S1's "owl sh/t" has been getting in the way of your day ..... wish he'd get his act together for you .... !! Grrrr ..... and FDIL has got her own "owl sh/t" goin' on .... wow ..... don't envy his choice in her ....

Dont take any of that to heart @Former-Member .... your doing all the right things, and it's their "owl sh/t" they're living in while you are offering something so special .... their choices, their outcomes ..... sorry you have to wear some of it .... but I think you're doing the right thing there too, with private tears and then putting on the brave face to make something of the day. They've got so much to learn .... and he might be back to cry on your shoulder at some point ..... sounds to me like he put his foot down about spending some time with his family when she would have wanted him to just follow her around with hers ..... try not to take it personally .... it's their "owl sh/t" .... try to leave as much of it as you can at their door ....

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Who can tell I have found a new saying that I like .... ?? 😂

Talking about DIL's .... mine has not responded to text or email since I left. She has bipolar .... okay .... but does that mean no communication at all no matter what I offer .... ? Need some help understanding this .... so, so lovely to receive a caring response from others here who struggle with bipolar .... makes it feel like it's not about me .... just trying to keep siding her love, but the deafening silence is hard. At least S1 is taking my calls, even briefly .... I have got that much. Looks like S1 and DIL have put D1 and SIL at the bottom of their priority list for Christmas Day catch-up and D1 is so hurt .... especially with us away ... S1 and DIL are visiting with her family and aunts and uncles on our side, but not made any commitment at all to their newly married sister .... that sucks 😡

Cant control any of it ..... "owl sh/t" happens in all families @Former-Member .....

Enjoy that roast no matter what else happens ❣

Lov n hugs from me ..... ❤️🎄💕

Congrats @Former-Member