Sleeping too much

Squawk @Former-Member

That is a new therapy - Acceptance Commitment Therapy - I wonder where they think all of these up

btw - I have just found I can make notes to myself on my notebook - so I am putting that down to look up later -

Noticing things without reacting - well - that's a good idea but what happens when you get a call from your mother - you notice a blue fireball in your chest - but it began to fade - you noticed that -

But what about the space in between the call and finding this blue fireball? I am wondering about that

I actually have a pic of that blue fireball

That therapy sounds like a good idea - apparently I am having Cognitive Behaviour Therapy where I replace one bad image with a good one - it is working on the anniversary thing atm - I have done well

Well - they give all these behaviours and therapies a name because they need them to communicate I guess - I must have a look at all of them - I might learn something

I hope that fireball stays gone Tawnz

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Its really horrible that some mothers think they have the right to be so cutting in their words and ways. So many mixed messages .. which just cut one up and keep feelings all churned up with the confusion of it all.

I took many years to settle after the griefs of my sibs, but I have to say, I was relieved when my mother finally went.

I am getting some clarity about her as I look at some of the videos on avoidant personalities, which fitted my mother very well. She never liked people. Anyone. So I did not need to take it personally, but when it is one's constant reality .. its hard not to be effected by it.

Good night @Faith-and-Hope xx

Hello @Former-Member,xx

is it raining at your place , we have got rain ,

plants are getting a good drink and the weeds too

You are really right about this @Appleblossom

My mother was into cutting comments for as long as I remember - and it seems she didn't mean it - but this has only come into my consciousness during the events of the last few years

How is a child or young person to know that their mother didn't mean it? Really!! It seems our mothers didn't like people and lacked self-control

Still - in the last 2/3 years of my mother's life she snarled at me to get out - and after a life-time of this - I got out and stayed out as I did a lot through my life-time - after all - if she wanted me gone - I went

But apparently she didn't mean this and no one told me -

Can't change this Apple - I understand this - it's hard on you and your sibs - I have no comprehension into this kind of behaviour at all. We are affected by all of this

I'm so sorry

Dec

Thank you @Former-Member, @Former-Member, @Faith-and-Hope, @Appleblossom, @PeppiPatty xoxo

Not a ramble, but clear and to the point. @Former-Member Glad you got out and bit social, but there is often a mixed bag in a lot of socialisng .. I am trying to learn not to let it hurt and put protective barriers if I can. I would miss you a lot if you stopped .. posting and just being YOU.

My night last night was good and my walk today was cancelled, which was perfect as it lets me process too.

We rescheduled our walk for next week .. and I might have made a new friend irl with whom I can have a fairly balanced give & take.

Cheers Bella

Hi @Former-Member

I went back and had another look at the Blue Face - which I found in Free Clip Art - and yes - it is an angry face - oohh - mother yellling until she gets blue in the face - I get that

Don't worry - I was not all that innocent - I had of control over my little brother and would sit beside him at the table and would kick his leg to let him know when to start and when to stop - watching for the signs all the time - I was a little kid fighting back - what else? Guilty of being a little kid obviously

Anyway - that glass eye was a mean trick - of course your little brothers were scared out of their wits - that was a horrible thing to do - not just put the eye where it could "watch" them but just take it out in front of them - what [sound fx - screeeeeeeeeeech]

My Gran used to take her teeth out in front of me which was fascinating but she never tried to eat me with them -

Anyway

Yes - I am okay thanks - the day after tomorrow hasn't got here yet - I have been very sleepy over these last couple of weeks - aw - I can't stand up and walk around 24/7 and the Sleep Police have suggested that I not nap during the day - but if I start walking into the walls I gotta lie down - even sit down - and plan to read and watch TV or both - but I will fall asleep and it is such a good feeling - so pleasant -

Since I have been in the website I have been feeling so much better and the troubling dates less troubling - perhaps the CBT is working since I started seeing my new therapist a few weeks ago

I am glad you are almost done with the sinking ship - apart from the guilt trips other people set snares about and with - it is better to leave - sheesh - we are not rats indeed but even rats leave a sinking ship and they have less cognition than we do. I hope you are okay too

Taking out the glass eye - aw - nasty one

Dec