Sleeping too much

Yep .... Spinach pie was me (from the Hot Chocolate thread 😊)

It was lov-er-lie .... have always really liked it .... it's just that WH eating two a day (post jogging) and filling the freezers full of them (buys them over east from the Greek restaurants and brings them back here) means there is an association with The Regimen .... and the kids have been fed so much of it it is taking big spaces of time in between to entice them back to an occasional piece ....

Popeye they are not ..... but he is ..... 😆

I'll be around for a while @Former-Member. I am knitting a blanket .... well .... throw rug really. I used to do ha crafts all the time, always had something going .... and I am trying to put myself back into my sense of self .... I am guessing you understand what I mean ...

Just a thought .... would members of your church come to visit for a bring-and-share lunch at your house .... and feed those beautiful birds with you .... ?

Go Spanokopita

Now there is a reason to get my oven going again

go banizza

Yeah .... don't think it's you @Former-Member .... it's a "type", and they will probably all be looking to each other for cues about how they are supposed to be .... they actually need someone like you to come along like a breath of fresh air and break the mould for them .... !!

Know a lot of people like that .... and I don't play by their rules .... so I'm a strange fish to them to begin with .... but they get used to me ... 😊 .... and then I think most of them like having me around ....

You will always get the one or two though ... who "don't like peaches" ....

@TAB

Okay .... so I had to look up what a banizza was .....

its Bulgarian version of Spanokopita. was being muzzled last nite

Hey @Former-Member 😊

I'm and about today, but I pick up messages on my phone here and there .... so keep posting sista ..... you are in my thoughts regardless, so I love to see you checking in.

I spent a lot of time in outback country towns where I was the arty strange fish, but I didn't want the junked up lives the other kids / teens my age were headed into .... drug and alcohol scene that has many of them struggling with addictions at this stage of their lives .... but then many were of the sort of families you are from, who don't know how to be loving and careful of other's feelings .... so they were trying to find was to stay numb ....

You are doing it the clean way @Former-Member, and that's the long-term way .... Immerse yourself in the simple joys of life - cooking (and keep telling me what you're making cos we all need inspiration 😏) walking in nature, feeding the birds, listening to music, singing when and as you can (I have sung in choirs) and invest in yourself.

If you are busy getting comfortable in your own skin, others will come and find you by degrees. There is something attractive about people who have learned to become their own best friend, and it brings others to them. People who have suffered CSA are the very worst hit by that, because within you you have to recover from that damage, and understand that it wasn't your fault, and get past the feelings of unworthiness that brings .... all those things belong with perpetrators (traitors !!) not with the survivors ..... keep reminding yourself of that when those feelings bubble up ....

The same way you can start to identify illness talking to thou with si and sh thoughts, you have to kick those unworthiness thoughts to the curb as well .... not for you to wear that sh*t .... you're growing past it, and it belongs in the dust with your shoes carefully wiped on it on the way past !!

You're growing into the new you ❣

Sing @Former-Member .... sing for you .... sing for me ... and the people who do care about you .... you would be surprised by who does .... how many grumpy people enter the post office before someone comes in who smokes and chats a bit ?? Keep spreading your sunshine ... it's planting seeds that can grow and return a yield to you ... never forget that !!

Big hugs, and you hand in there ❣ You are so worth it ❣ God says so ❣

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@TAB wrote:

its Bulgarian version of Spanokopita. was being muzzled last nite

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I know .... but some of these things trigger others who struggle with the unmentionables ....

I've been stopped at the gate in earlier posts to change wording re my story for that reason .... but it's all for good purpose .... everything has boundaries and these ones keep us on the positive as much as poss.

Love your wit and caring friendliness .... glad you're here .... lots of the other stuff we are all aware of, but don't need to mention specifically so we don't injure the ones who struggle with them .... and that's important.

Bulargia huh ? Been travelling ... or is it cultural explorations ?

😎