Sleeping too much

Night @Former-Member

Sleep well - catch up with everything tomorrow

It's pouring buckets here and I have not put both my bins out - of course - the bin men will be early tomorrow

cya

Dec

I've found this a double edged sword. I normally get a peak of energy around the 11pm-12pm mark, so as a result I tend to stay up late.

The following day though, I feel very tired, to the point that I've gone to have a nap during lunch break.

I would prefer to just get through the day, but without "siesta" I'm a complete zombie in the pm.

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@Faith-and-Hope wrote:

@Former-Member

Hugs ❤️❣

...and baby dragons exist to turn our hair silver .... it's their job from the cradle ....

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Thanks @Faith-and-Hope - now I know that the silver in the front of my hair is gradually taking over the pepper and salt in the back

I was going to have some purple foils - but that silver hair has been earned - I might just stay this colour

Dec

I had my morning coffee so late I think it's brunch @Faith-and-Hope

I know D3 is battling and wants to continue with her education - if it helps - I got through university two subjects a year with a lot of extensions and deferments and special considerations - and somehow made it through 12 years of strife and so I have this insight into the dilemma

Your WH must be adding to D3's struggle - it is a major issue - I am not at all sure I understand the process you are going through as a family - so I can only wonder a lot and also wonder that my dd got through to year 11 and then started her apprenticeship and once chaos in her life was less seemed to do it very well

I was told things would change and they did - and while you sit on that volcano waiting I have to think of you and now pray for you all the time. That pink flower you have as your avatar seems to be cropping up everywhere - I think of you and your family and let the Spirit pray the words because I can't know - can't see - only trust my prayers are going up there for you

How many weeks are there left to assure D3's graduation - matriculation - a different word - a more clever word - try that one for motivation - I know she cares a lot but when I was going through all hell for my son and other's suffered no doubt - motivation was the driving force -

So I am still sending up those arrow prayers

Decadian

Hi Everyone.

I just had my coffee, but I'm ready for another one. Slow morning here. I'm still getting over yesterday. A counsellor once told me that digging up wounds is like having an operation and we need to rest afterwards, makes sense. I did do alot of crying yesterday, but I needed it. I haven't been able to cry lately and it was making me feel angry inside and more depressed. So, crying is good to release everything. It was amazing, while I was at the psychologist's, I burst out crying and said that I feel like a little girl inside, that needs to be comforted. (long story, but it makes sense). We ran out of time yesterday, but I'm going to research on, "how to heal our inner child"' and see what I can find. Anyway, that's enough about me. Sometimes I like to share things, in case it helps someone else.

@Former-Member Sounds like a good idea to sell and buy something smaller, with less yard. If you do decide to do that, I hope that it's not too much work and not too stressful for you to fix up the house, sell it and buy another one. Only think about it when you're feeling strong enough emotionally etc. Such a big job, in so many ways. I'd like to sell and move away, buy something with less yard, less work, but I just can't bring myself to even think about it at the moment. Would you buy another house or unit? I would love a unit, but hubby needs his shed.

@Faith-and-Hope I hope you were able to get your daughter off to school eventually. It's hard pushing them when they aren't feeling well, I know. You sound very tired. Rest when you can and maybe you can get yourself a nice massage some time soon.

@Decadian I hope you are having a nice day down there. Is it still very cold there, or warming up? Sunny here today, very cold in our house. I need to get moving and get the washing etc done. Need to go to shop etc to find a costume of some sort for my daughter for school. I don't feel like doing anything, to be honest.

@Former-Member Are you ok today? Hugs to you.

@Fixable Hi! Nice to meet you. I'm guessig that you are new on here. Welcome.

Hello to anyone else on here. I hope that your day goes well. I'm off for now, lots to do. Chat later.

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope

That is a good thing to know - I will keep this up - something is working

I understand one thing though - I do not like trying new food much - one of my grandson's wives makes some kind of cold dish that people love - she admits it looks gross and is not offended that I don't want to try it - I think my anxiety about new food goes back to my childhood and hearing my mother warn

"That will make you sick" - d'uh

But I am having three meals a week delivered starting Friday and I have ordered something I don't recognise - but let's try it - I am so tired of the same old - same old - I do understand that part of the problem - to a degree

But great that your WH did manage all that with only a few minutes of tension and anxiety - which I am sure is horrible for everyone - no degrees of horrible - just horrible - let's hope he finds his way out of there - it seems to be happening

And D3 has 3.5 weeks of battling to go - say 25 days - I count down days to spring every year - one to go this year - is it that close to the end of the academic year already? -

Every pink flower I see is a prayer going up - ah - I have two vases of silk flowers in here - my lounge room - they have pink flowers - it's time to wash them - let's see how that works - my prayers might be more frequent

Whatever helps

Wtg @Faith-and-Hope

Decadian

Hi @Former-Member

I understand about a slow start - I am having one of those myself today - if I put off my shower much longer it will be time to go to bed - how neat that would be.

But I have to tidy up my house too - I did a load of laundry yesterday and it is drying in here with the reverse cycle A/C - very creased up though - I sort of forgot about it in the machine and went to sleep watching TV - for hours - how does that happen?

And it's chilly and gloomy here too - rained hard most of yesterday and into the night

Your therapy - I am glad you cried - there are hormones released in our tears that help release the inner anguish so prevalent here - how great I have company when I need to let the tears out - but it is exhausting

And your therapist is right - having therapy is digging into buried wounds and if you had surgery you would be tied up to a drip with nurses giving you injections and maybe there would be flowers - I love flowers - and maybe cards

Alas - this is not likely to happen when we are having psychotherapy - and the inner child needs their wounds healed too and needs comfort

That inner child should never go away - it was there when you were born and has grown along side you and experienced all you did - and my inner child felt torn when my son died - and somehow it felt as if I was a little girl crying because she lost her dolly - and this was exactly right - my inner child was wounded

Care for your inner child - she is a very precious part of you - when you have passed through this stage of your life your inner child will rejoice with you, she can be at a party and sing Happy Birthday with joy - she can weep when your little children grow past her - and leave with their own lives to live - she can nuture you if you nuture her

Never lose the inner child - they are so precious. I think cruel people have lost their inner child - how terrible

Take it easy today

Decadian