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Hi @Former-Member and @Faith-and-Hope

I love the floral coffee too - I have to start adding some pics to all of this

And I have eaten all my toast and jam and enjoying my flat-ordinary coffee - feeling better than I have for days - maybe winter is going away - we can hope so

I might even tidy the tables - maybe that's ambitious - but let's sort out the filing at least -

Now the weather is not quite so bitey I have been playing the piano again - I felt my new keyboard was neglected in the other front room - this can be a cold place - but I like it - not the cold but the unit -

Spring is ready to spring - we even have a blossom tree on this block now - has this been one of the worst winters? I am sure all winters are horrible but this was has given me a really tough time

Am I alone with this feeling? - or it is a common factor? Winters in Melbourne are really hard work and I enjoyed great weather in Canberra - having been warned it was cold up there

Dec - enjoying the coffee

Hi @Former-Member

After a few rough days I think I am better today - anyway - feeling better - I just hope that I am over whatever bugged me - and it was emotional I think - pain clinic and triggers about my son - aw - that was bleak - Dr. Phil is off my list and that gives me a whole hour in the middle of the day to do something better - different - more interesting.

@Faith-and-Hope

Aw - I can't imagine what the next phase of WH's conditon might be - it sounds as if you are concerned - so I will wait and see - but how great he organised an evening out at the movies

Thanks for telling us about Ben Hur - the Charlton Heston version got right down to the nitty-gritty - of course it seemed to take ages to get through all the suffering but still hit had "grit" - and after Charlton Heston has done a movie it's hard for the other actors to follow up - No one did Planet of the Apes as well as he did - they ran the whole series here back earlier this year -

I will wait until they put the new version up on TV - those old classics were brilliant - and - hey - for really old classics I got 5 DVDs in a pack for $5.00 for the whole lot - and they are mostly in B&W - great photography - great acting - one in particular brought back memories when Mum and I were friends and enjoyed all this - instead of Dr Phil this week I could watch those movies again

Haunting DVD outlets could be fun - I don't just watch a movie - I devour it - I have been a movie fan since I was 8 - we called it the Pitchas remember - I was given a shilling - 10 cents - and was sent off to walk a mile to the pitcha theatre and spent the next 2 -3 hours there - and walked home alone afterwards and in the winter it would be getting dark - no - this was not neglect - all the other kids did the same - but we could not let our kids do that now

Enough of memory lane

Dec

Hi @BlueBay

I am okay today - I think I am over whatever triggered me into a few bad days - and I am sorry you get migraine too - you have had some bad headaches - before you went to hospital mostly - I really felt for you anyway and the headaches just added to the picture

Since I sent a long post to you during the night I have thought more about the situation with your parents - so it is going through the sorting-out process in my mind - this touches home for me - but time has passed and they have died and I was on good terms with my father so let's say his passing was peaceful and I have good memories

But about my mother - not so easy - I still think about something and want to talk to her about it - explain it - and I can't - and not just because she died but because I never could

So I ask myself - what could help you here? Nothing can change the past - and with both our mothers - could we have ever changed the future?

I never deal in platitudes - so I only get into the nitty-gritty - there is only one thing to do and that is to cry and feel your grief and anger - and I do know - I could not remember all the stuff until she died - it was repressed - which means I didn't know it was there - and so I think you are in a similar situation - it is all down there and eating you up and there is nothing that can be made different because your mother has to change - and she won't - she doesn't see it - it's not that she doesn't care - she doesn't even see it - and this is so hard for you - it was so hard for me

And regrets - um yes - I honestly can say I never did anything to deserve the way she treated me - and I have an idea you have been her victim for whatever reason. I was rebellious - honest and obedient but a little rebel in the cute clothes my Gran sewed for me and hair ribbons - and I drove my mother crazy

And here's the thing - you can't please your mother - so with our help I hope you can see yourself and the decent but damaged person you are - and grow inside - and be who you are meant to be

All of this is a class-room - and we all learn something

Still here thinking of you

Decadian

Goll-ee @Faith-and-Hope

How do you cope with all of this? - are you still waiting for the other shoe to fall?

It's like a puzzle - all the bits have to go in the right place or it doesn't work -

It would be so easy to make comments that wouldn't help - I am sure you think of these yourself anyway - WH was making an effort for the family - not just himself

I was never as tolerant, never as understanding, did not care about LH's issues - in fact I really don't know what they were

Yet somehow you are holding a family together -

You are "Standing in the need of Prayer" so I will send some

Decadian

Hi @Appleblossom

It's amazing how differently people think about church - actually I miss it - the service is too early for me to get organised with my back - and this has become a habit - but I miss it

I will never understood why my mother would be dragging me out of bed to go to early church when I was going back later to sing in the choir - and then going to the Youth Group - and she laughed when I said I was a born-again Christian - Heaven help us - I was a Heritage Christian but Born Again???? - shivers - I was told I would grow out of it but instead I grew into it

My church going was working for me - but I got snide comments at times - and when Dad was getting near the end I learned I was The Churchy One. This is so strange - I just don't understand why I was was immersed into the Anglo-Catholic Traditions from an early age and then criticised

I miss church - it is not my problem what other people do about their religious life - but to this day resent the three times a day on Sunday - twice was enough surely - and then to be called The Churchy One

That is seriously weird - I often think - great - I might have bothered other people with "strange" behaviour - but you can't please everyone all the time - I pleased myself and then of course - at least one person was happy

Dec