Sleeping too much

Hi @Former-Member - wonderfully sunny here this morning - I am sitting just inside the front door typing away happily - this is a good place to talk about our lives

Yes - I have recently thought that it is always me who reaches out to people in the family - years of chronic pain have caused me to retreat from the world a bit - but through electronic media I keep in touch with some cousins - and my dd and I text - but I have a huge family really - but there is someone - TS - who thoughtlessly lies and her lies are not even clever - and she seems blissfully unaware that I do not care about her lles - just sick of over 60 years of someone's else's cheap shots - she has no power over me

But she hurt my parents, my daughter and her son with all of this bitter behaviour - I feel anger for what TS has done to other people - my parents suffered terrible regret - my dd believed the lie or lies - how would I know why and how many - and did not give me a chance to defend myself

Even a criminal is present when and indictment is read - I have not been that lucky - and I fall into an area of "non-argument" which works for me.

So I live in a divided family - and it goes back through the generations - and too many stories to tell - but that's the guts of it.

If people can't get past this in life - why bother in death? There is an episode in Little House on the Prairie where an elderly lady has been ignored by her three children she involves other people in having her funeral while she is still alive - and how true - all her kids get to see her then - great story - but I am not into that - just think sometimes how ridiculous all of this is - and leave other people to themselves

Yes - I do have a damaged spine - I have Degenerative Disc Disease from L2/L3 to L5/S1 with severe end plate damage on the lower verterbae and spinal cord canal stenosis at L4/L5 and L5/S1 - I attribute most of this to the sporting excesses of my youth - I played cricket and was a spin-bowler - that puts a tremendous twist through the spine - and I also ran for miles on concrete - until I was in my late forties -

I tried a lot of treatments in the past - and now use walking as my main exercise - and glad it is sunny today because I am more likely to get out and walk in the sun - I am looking forward to spring and being able to talk walks after sunset - that is my favourite time

Meditation and prayer help - I find these tend to blend rather - but whatever it is - I can really relax if I can find the right spot. The cat as learned not to annoy me when I am doing this - and having her there if she doesn't walk all over me is really helpful - animals seem to help a lot - I believe in Pet Therapy

Yes - we do both live alone - so there are the evenings - how great it was to find the Night Shift here - and being able to come on-line and find the conversation and just jump in and be accepted - this site is so great that way - and this way - I do not feel as isolated as I used to when I was in the other website in the States - I would get on when they were all going to bed so there was never the chatting that happens here - how fast time flies - I don't watch as much TV as I used to

That was a great post - yours and the response - I am not inclined to fight with people in my family - no doubt that I will see them when our elderly relatives pass on - as we all must

Thanks @Former-Member - it might be a forbidden subject in some circles but I don't see it that way - people do legally have to have some kind of service - a couple of professional witnesses called in and words said - no one is tossed into a hole or throw onto a fire without ceremony - the dead to have this some honour.

But yes - it is for the living not the dead - the dead do not need it - but while we are living we might like to see those we have missed so much during our life time for reasons that we not our doing

Decadian

Thanks @Former-Member

I made myself a bug cup of coffee at your suggestion of tea - I have a tea story I could tell - short story - I like tea made in a pot and will sometimes do that

Funerals - I have written a reply to @Former-Member - and it is sad when family can't drag themselves to see someone while they are alive - my son was a charismatic person - very popular - and the church was packed to over-flowing and there were many people ourside - but this is true when young people die - older people - less so - but my Dad had a pretty good sized funeral - my mother too I suppose - but I have been alienated most of my life and wonder at my TS for doing what she does and has done

But except for my sorrow about this - it's the way it is and I live my life to suit myself and my writing is always important - where ever I am writing and why

Thinking back any years though - what we think about can say a lot about ourselves to ourselves - and I have fantastic memories - so glad I do - not everyone is so lucky

So here's the thing - I could have made a choice to fit into my family better - that would have been degrading but I could have - however I doubt whether it would have gained me any popularity points - I am glad I lived the way I did - my memories are so great - maybe like fine wine they improve with time but I can take a long drive in my mediations and remember the sacred and the terrible about driving above the snow line - or for miles along the Great Ocean Road or riding my bike along the Yarra

Thanks for your thoughts - they are taken well - and appreciated

Decadian

Pretty much @Former-Member - mostly Toxic Sister

Boy - is she ever - no one needs to have such a person in their life - but they exist

Dec