To hospital or not to hospital

sorry @Doglover I can't read your post today or help you. I've had a very stressful day at volunteering, the guy I have to work with does racist, homophobic & hateful, unrelenting ranting and I feel very disturbed by it. I can feel my psychotic symptoms returning as a result. It took me 6 weeks to recover last time and I don't have that kind of time now.

Oh im so sorry @BryanaCamp . I wish there was something i could do to help u. Do whatever u need to do to look after u. It was very kind of you to let me know.

Mayb not a question for today, maybe another time when u r feeling better, but cld u consider volunteering somewhr else to get away from this guy? He seems to hav caused u a lot of stress and aingst judging by ur latest post and previous ones. Anyway, just a thought.

My warmest wishes are with u @BryanaCamp . Let me know if theres anything i can do, or if u want to talk, im here.

Hugs 💜

Hi @Gazza75 , thanks so much for ur post and kind thoughts, i rly appreciate it. I was very open with psychologist today, basically it was all about my fears about hospital, concerns about medication ingredients, fears that i wont get better and will get put in the locked ward if i get too agitated, all the sort of things iv posted on this thread. Didnt rly feel like i got much out of it to b honest. I met with my sil for about 45 mins afterwards bcoz she had an apptment with same guy an hour later and i feel like i got more out of that, and that was free!

Thank u for ur sugggestions re calming myself. I was doing 'mindfulness of the breath' pretty much most the night last night when i cldnt sleep!

Thank u for ur kind and encouraging words. I certainly dont feel any of those things, i feel weak, hopeless, helpless and frightened, but thank u.

I hope u are doing a whole lot better than i am @Gazza75 . Warm wishes to u.

Just a little something to hopefully cheer u up @BryanaCamp .

Hi @Doglover

I’m sorry to hear how you’re struggling. I spent a week in hospital when everything became too much for me. It did help me at the time because I didn’t have to think about anything that was happening “on the outside”. It gave me a much needed retreat. What I did notice though once inside the psych ward is that there is an acute psych ward and sub acute psych ward. The nurses station was located in between the two. I was thankful that I was placed in the sub acute side because it was less confronting than the patients in the acute side. I was there in April. It’s now the end of June and unfortunately I’m still not back at work and I struggle everyday. I know it must be tiring for you, as it is for me. But I keep thinking this has to pass eventually. Nothing ever stays the same. This is the hope I’m carrying, one step at a time.

Hi @Doglover just passing by to say Hi and to see how you are today. Hope today has been ok for you

Hey @Doglover, sounds like you've had quite a big couple of days. How are you feeling today?

Hi @Sad2 ,

Thank u for sharing ur experience with me. I am glad ur time in hospital was beneficial for u.

I think its rly important what u mentioned about the different areas with different level of severity of patient's conditions. Thats not something that our public hospital has and i believe to its detriment and to the detriment of the patients. It wld b far better to hav ppl of significant severity of condition separated from those who r not in that same place. It can b very frightening and confronting otherwise. That has been my experience when i spent 2 days as a sort of inpatient but not really. I was freaked out the whole time. Everyone was lumped in together no matter what thr condition and it was rly quite frightening.

Im sorry to hear that u r still struggling and not able to b back at work yet. I understand how challenging that can b. I hav bn off since november last year and hav found the whole process very frustrating, particularly the not getting better part!

Im glad u still hav hope. There are many ppl on here that hav bn in terrible states with thr mental health but that are now able to work and live a functioning life - so there is hope.

I hope u hav some good supports around u, and that u hav found support and encouragement on this site also. There are many wonderful ppl here that r only too happy to share of their experiences provide support.

Take care @Sad2 my thoughts r with u.

Hi @Doglover

i’m sorry you had such an upsetting and frightening experience in hospital. Do you have friends & family around you to give you support? I’ve found that that’s what’s helping me get through this. I do believe we can get through this, as stronger, more resilient people. And yes, this forum has been a great help for me.

Hi @Snowie , sorry to take so long to get back to u, bn a busy cpl of days. Thanks for thinking of me. Things really tough here unfortunately. How bout u @Snowie ?