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I have been here before

dazedanaisContributor

I have been here before

I am unsure if anyone will recognise my username but I am not too unfamiliar with these forums. Out of the blue - I kinda just disappeared for a while and I cannot explain why but I am back again because I am struggling and I can remember just how supportive this community was.

Things haven't been well... I've been in and out of hospital more times then I would want to count and have been very close to death. I have been struggling just recently with a breakup (common, yet hurtful) and then just lashed into over eating and harming myself in ways that I wont share but which haven't been good at all... I was underweight in December due to not eating and now I am back to a normal weight but feel hideous due to the copious amounts of junk I have been consuming.

I am just sick to the brim of myself and everything. Recently I impulsively got a tattoo when dissociated and my family are really against it. I am still hiding it and depressed about it. I dont want to bore everyone and write too much 😞

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor

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@dazedanais

Understanding and insight do not take away the pain, but it might give you the ability to make the best decisions for your life.

One nutritional approach is too gradually squeeze out the bad food and behaviours with the good. Not to be too B&W about it. Thats my approach anyway. I also refine the food that I eat eg, if I am getting into liquorice I include more and more healthier and maybe more expensive versions of it, til somehow I have had enough. Mostly I dont focus on weight, but quality of food. Might help. Hang out in the veggie aisle rather than junk food aisle etc.

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MaggieSenior Contributor

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@dazedanais I've just read through your thread. There is so much I identify with. The horror story, eating problems, involuntary/voluntary hospital admissions.

I have found talking to someone you eventually get heard by very helpful. I can't use the trust word as I'm not there.

Not sure what else to say other than I understand some of your journey. 💕💜

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dazedanaisContributor

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Hi everyone @Maggie @Appleblossom @Queenie @outlander @Faith-and-Hope @Zoe7 @Sans911 @CheerBear @Shaz51

Just letting you all know that I may be off the grid for a bit. I am currently in hospital due to some stupid things I have done to myself ❤️ I am not currently stabilised and a bit drugged up at the moment but stable enough to AT least be typing this right now... Very low blood pressure and very low heart rate. I am also having some difficulty breathing but am on oxygen.

Take care everyone x

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outlanderSenior Contributor

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Im really sorry to hear that @dazedanais it sounds like your in the right place though. Please let them help you

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MaggieSenior Contributor

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@dazedanais You are doing your best, that's more than enough. Rest up and let them care for you. Lots of these for you.💜💜💜💕

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Shaz51Senior Contributor

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lots of hugs @dazedanais

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QueenieSenior Contributor

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Take care of yourself @dazedanais , that’s your first priority right now. Thanks for checking in. Sending hugs and hugs xo

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor

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@dazedanais

It sounds serious, but I am glad you had the mental space to able to type and let us know that you were alright.

Hugz ... in spirit ... Healing thoughts ...

Check in when you feel up to it ... It is a huge thing and shows you care about others ...

You have had a difficult journey. Maybe wrap yourself in cottonwool for a bit ...

Gently Bently

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor

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💐🌷💕 @dazedanais .....

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dazedanaisContributor

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Thank you everyone @Faith-and-Hope @Appleblossom @Queenie @Shaz51 @Maggie @outlander

and anyone else I have forgotten to mention

I was in ICU for a bit but now out of there at least ❤ just looking forward to when I can go home which I am hoping is soon as I don't want to be admitted into a psychiatric ward afterwards. Home is where I am hoping I will head.

Take care everyone. Have a good day!

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