Writing As A Form Of Therapy

Hi @BlueBay,

Fantastic that you went ahead and took on the art therapy today. The inner critic is one of the biggest blocks to artistic expression. You faced up to it and won. The more you can now ease up on any judgement of what you are doing, the freer your creativity will flow. I wonder if there are things that you do in your life that you do not exercise self-judgement on while you are doing them. For example, gardening, going for a walk, watching your dog play. If you can remember how you feel when doing things like that and bring that attitude to your creativity, you may have an easier time of it as time goes on. Really, creativity is just another thing that anyone can do, like absent minded doodling when you are on the phone to someone. Especially when it comes to art therapy, it really doesn't matter whether what you do is 'good' or 'bad', those ideas just don't really apply. But the main thing is that you have started now and, as @Faith-and-Hope has already suggested, it's likely to get easier as time goes by. Big congrats again on being brave enough to take on this challenge. My favourite lines of your poem are:

I sat and looked back at today

and thought gee it was okay

🙂

Thank you so much @Mazarita

Here is a poem for my youngest child, 20 yrs old and about to go on his very first overseas holiday on his own (leaving Sunday)

To my son:

As the day approaches

And you have been counting down

I know you will be excited

and so will i deep down

I see you as 'my baby'

but yet you are so mature

for you are set in your goals

from when you were a child

You always knew what you wanted

A builder, a carpenter, no an accountant

So off you went to Uni

and in a few more years you will be there

So as you fly this weekend

and take to the sky

You start your journey on your own

and gee I'm proud of you

I can't wait to hear all about

your trip

where you've been and what you've seen

and who you've met along the way

I wish I could have done this trip like you

at your age but then I was married

and I left home just like you

So all I say is I wish you luck

love, health and stay safe

for this is a once in a lifetime trip for you

and I hope you cherish it all

Stay safe, take care and just one

thing you need to do .....

pls remember to ring me too

I can't write anymore for I will cry

tears are welling up inside

so now I wish you all the best

on yoru trip, good luck

Bon Voyage!!!!

Love mum xxxxooo

Such a wonderful, touching poem, @BlueBay. Straight from the heart. I bet your children love you very much.

Thanks @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope @Mazarita

You know @Former-Member I do pray to God and ask Him for help, support and love and to surround love and guidance for my children.

But after I remembered my childhood sexual abuse 5 years ago I was angry with God. I stopped praying because I was so angry because I wasn't protected. I wanted Him to protect me and then i thought i must have done something really bad in life to deserve the abuse. But i was only a child, 9 years old. Sometimes now if i pray i end up in tears because it brings memories back of when i was a child.

I think I will be praying a lot while my son is away.

I am so sorry to hear what you had suffered as a child @BlueBay, and I can understand how that would affect your ability to trust in God.

It is a terrible thing when children are exposed to evil ..... I don't have any answers for situations like what you have gone through.

I can only hope that you have received many, many blessings in your life that help you to heal, such as your beautiful children, and I am glad that at least sometimes you feel able to pray God's protection over them.

I will light a candle for your 9 year old self, and pray comfort and healing for her within you, so she can grow past her pain and suffering through your poetry and artwork, and into the love she has found in you having a family of your own, where the children were kept safe ......

I hope it's okay to say that to you @BlueBay. I want to hug the little girl inside you who was so badly hurt, and I feel so proud of you that you have raised your children to adults, and you are learning to trust that they can be safe even when they are not right with you.

❤️🌷💗🌷💜🌷