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why can't I cope longer?

Unknown userMember09 Jan 2019, 10:22 pm AEDT

why can't I cope longer?

Something's not right alright... Not sure why I'm falling to pieces atm and short of listening ears. Hope someone here can put up with me.

I'm walking in circles at home... well, not literally, just can't seem to stay focused or finish anything... if I can even remember what it is I got out of the chair to do half the time...

And snappy with people, everywhere, rude even (which is so out of character for me), the slightest hint of being 'had' or criticised or misunderstood... oh boy, I just can't keep it in atm. The internal pressure cooker wants to explode & I don't know how to stop it.

I'm at the crossroads in life, moving and deciding if to bother starting again, or just quit on life / die.

And what's scary about that lately, is the thought of it doesn't make me scared anymore - like its just what I'm supposed to do. Do you think God would factor in a premature departure (suicide / depression?) like he accepts other illnesses that separate spirit & body?

Its just those kinds of dark thoughts, but not like crisis level or that, just trying to find my way, or other alternatives, something to look fwd to.... to keep me here. I can't see a future worth living & don't feel the internal resources keep fighting.

Don't tell me to run off & get antidepressants... I'm on them. Or psychotherapy - that's in progress... I think maybe I just want to be heard. Not changedchanged (disapproved of)... just cared about... Is that too much to ask from life? Oh I know God loves me and all that, but I still live on earth...

Do you know what I'm trying to say?Does anyone ever feel this way? I just feel so totally spent - the end of the line... ... ...

My two church supports are away at the moment, not that I lean on them heavy, I'm just conscious there gone...

Ha! Horrible feeling like the only close people in ya life need to take a holiday away from you, well, maybe some of the others I notice they have to deal with more, none the less - feeling abandoned 😞

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Unknown userMember24 July 2019, 1:15 pm AEST

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Hi @Former-Member ,

I'm sorry there is not much anyone can do to help you right now - that is a disheartening place to be in!

Of course, you are 100% welcome to post on the forums about this stuff to get the support you need! My only word of caution would be to avoid articulating graphic details around suicide (e.g., a suicide attempt; or a method of suicide), as specified in the Community Guidelines. I hope this makes sense!

If you have any concerns, please feel free to email us at team@saneforums.org.

Please try your best to take care of yourself.

Kindest Regards,

Amour_Et_Psyché

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Unknown userMember24 July 2019, 1:28 pm AEST

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That's cool @outlander, I'll have the pink one.

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outlanderSenior Contributor24 July 2019, 1:29 pm AEST

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Of course @Former-Member 🤗

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor24 July 2019, 1:46 pm AEST

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@Former-Member

Glad you are still posting.

The forums have helped me around managing Suicidal Ideation. I have managed to mostly keep within guidelines, or alter posts if I forget. Sometimes things just burst out of us.

You are settling in a new town. There is so much going on for you. Glad you are getting furniture organised. Sorry Salvos were not super helpful.

It is good your better understood here than LIfeline. I wish they would not tout Lifeline as an answer, but its the system

Take Care Bella

I have to go with son for hazard perception test.

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Ali11Senior Contributor24 July 2019, 7:42 pm AEST

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Sending love @Former-Member

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Unknown userMember27 July 2019, 11:39 pm AEST

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Looking back over a few days here it doesn't seem real that I got that down again, but such amazing support from all of you, thank you, I'm glad I was around for my first visitor since moving here (10wks)... and even received my first personal mail. Took away the pangs of loneliness a while. Seems God knew I'd need it this week. Teary while typing... who know why we cry really... happy, sad, relieved... Guess it's a healing any which way.

Hope you're all ok, gets quiet here on weekends too.

Got some lovely bird photos this week. Put couple up on Everything Birds thread.

💌

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Zoe7Senior Contributor28 July 2019, 12:12 am AEST

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So wonderful to hear things have picked up a little for you @Former-Member and that you were 'around' for your first visitor. So many positives in your post and that makes me smile.

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MaggieSenior Contributor28 July 2019, 4:33 am AEST

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@Former-Member It’s good to hear there are some good things happening for you right now. Yea, a funny thing about tears, happy, sad ones, life’s strange.

I will go and look at your bird pics.

Hope today has some more happy moments for you.

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Ali11Senior Contributor28 July 2019, 9:01 am AEST

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Great to hear you're feeling better @Former-Member, and that visitor must've been lovely. Going to go find the bird photos too

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Unknown userMember28 July 2019, 2:04 pm AEST

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Thanks , Zoe7 Maggie Ali11 outlander Appleblossom ... and those who ✔️ support.

Nice to not feel alone. Hope you're all ok? Do remind or tag me where your updates are, can't remember much 😕 (either the forums are expanding or maybe my brain is shrinking lol).

Have backpain today, gone back to bed with a heat pack.

Still gotta get the drawers and wardrobe out the car, one day, so I can go get the last bit out of storage in Sydney. Still have my keyboard, guitar and filing cabinets there... and a 2nd chest of drawers. Hmm 🤔 got too much 'stuff' already, this house is less than 1/2 the size of the last few I lived in, probably a good thing I guess, carbon footprint and all... They say this gathering stuff, hoarding, or collecting...whatever... they say it's tied in with loss, and trying to fill in the psychological void... I just gotta work backwards to deal with it... a layer at a time.

Kinda felt God was talking to my higher self, to come 'away' to this place, to rest a while, bring healing... I didn't understand it at the time (so far away from everything & all I know), but the birds, and sky, and moss and rolling hills... I see it now. Just gotta hang onto the positive divine purpose behind all things no matter how drained, sad or lonely I feel. Feel free to remind me of this anytime😊

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