having a bad morning

Hi everyone

I'm having a bit of a lull this morning. A bit of self pity and reflecting on all the negative (which isn't good).

But I've been thinking "if only I did what i was supposed to do" i wouldn't be like this now. I am angry at my therapist for saying he can't help me (i know why he has said this and i do understand) it's my thinking that is telling me otherwise 😞

So much self hate this morning, better do something quickly so I can shift these thoughts.

It's really hard sometimes to stay and feel positive for a day, even an hour, even a few minutes.

Hi @BlueBay

Keeping busy is a good way of dealing with feeling this way. These thoughts are not serving you in any way. They will only keep you from progressing. Use this as a test to work out whether to stay unoccupied and muddling with thoughts or not ..... are these thoughts supportive of my healing ?

You already know that the negative thoughts are there. Thus is not an aha moment where you first realise you have negative thoughts to deal with. These are rebounding thoughts that come back again and again, and you have sought treatment to help you to move beyond them, so push them aside and fill your day up with achievements instead .... even if the achievements are as simple as making a cup of tea, sitting outside, and focussing on at least three things that please you - warm sunshine, green grass, a gentle breeze, birdsong, jersey at your feet, a butterfly passing by, maybe even a ladybug ....

Find things to replace despair with hints of joy. Joy is soul-food. Search it out, especially when tired, unhelpful thoughts are plaguing you. Shake it off ....

Big hugs .... bug hugs ... 😏💕

Hi @Faith-and-Hope

Right it's time to get my knitting out and make a coffee 🙂 Sitting in the study with the sun coming through the window and Jersey girl right by my side. She is such a princess!!! Washing is on just waiting for it to finish so I can hang it out.

Have a nice day @Faith-and-Hope back on later. xx

Attagirl @BlueBay ❤️

Well @Faith-and-Hope @Decadian@utopia

the knitting didn't last very long. I can't sit still, starting to get emotional again.

I have just looked at our bank accounts and it's not a good sight 😞

Actually really depressing. And I know that my husband has to pay the rego in a few weeks and I really don't know how we are going to do this.

And I know what he will say - "well where has all the money gone" like it's my fault. And when he says that i take it personally like ihave done something wrong.

I don't know what to do anymore, I am crying because i can't fix the problem. and i need to fix it.

This PMT week is really hard on me, I hate it so much. I am such a cow at home, an emotional roller coaster that is snapping at everyone.

don't know what to do anymore, i need a break

@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member

I could but I can't. I have no motivation or anything at the moment to do that. I know that when hubby finds out about our finances he will get angry and its always my fault.

It's one of those days again 😞

I will sit here and have another coffee.

cry, that's all i can do right now.