Trying to be happy, isn’t working

Dear @Former-Member @Shaz51 and others who check up on me,

Here in Perth we are in the grip of a grey June. It has rained quite a bit too.

my arm is getting better after my fall, the cast has been off for a few weeks now, but it is still painful at times and I have limited movement. I am having therapy for it and have exercises to do.

there are still things I can’t do, but I can knit again, and am finishing a shawl I started a while ago

i have been feeling a bit better lately, I try to achieve something everyday,and to take my dogs for a walk.

I do not like winter and crave sunshine. I wish I could think of something interesting to say, but I can’t. I thank those who post to me and offer support, it does mean a lot

peri

hello @Peri

glad you are here my friend , glad you are feeling a bit better

one day at a time xx

glad to hear you can knit again

do you like crosswords puzzles , my mum does

yes love to have some sunshine here too

@Former-Member is away visiting her sick mum at the moment , back she will be soo happy to hear from you

so keep writting my friend

Hi @Shaz51

@thank you for your kindness. Today I am feeling very low and sad. I am sick of trying to feel stronger and happier. I feel so alone in it . The sun is shining here and I love winter sunshine, but even that is not cheering me today. My son who I live with is nearly constantly critical of me and it makes me so unhappy, he is never loving or warm towards me. It makes me feel unlovable and unworthy. I will soon be turning 68, I don’t like that and I have wasted so many opportunities in my life.

I pray for some small joy

peri

@Peri 💐💕

💜 @Peri

here for you my darling @Peri

hello and hugs @Faith-and-Hope , @Former-Member , @Appleblossom , @BryanaCamp , xxx

@Peri, are you ok my friend , here for you xx

Dear @Shaz51

thanks for your support. I am currently really struggling with the depression and anxiety. I feel really low and terrible and can find no joy. I can usually do something that will lift me out even a bit, but the last two weeks have been awful. My future feels really bleak to me and I don’t know how to face it or cope with these feelings. I don’t expect anyone to come up with a miracle cure, but the support here means a lot

peri

Dear @Peri

Hello my friend, it was so nice to see your name pop up in my notifications just now. I have been thinking of you a lot over the past few weeks. But as you know ... I have been somewhat preoccupied with other things over the last few weeks. I got home last night however, after my Mums funeral last Friday. I hope to be around again a bit more from now on. I would hope that I can try to offer some comfort and support to you, as you have done for me over a period of time.

So sorry you appear to have fallen into another black hole. I had thought you were sounding a little brighter last time I read an update from you. But I guess that is the typical roller coaster of depression and anxiety.

I dont think I can offer any real advice, because quite frankly, I guess you could say that I am in much the same condition as you right now. In a black hole, which looks steep and impossible to climb out of right now. But I will just founder around in the bottom of the hole for a time and regain some strength. Then I will try again to climb my way out of it. Although I cannot offer any solutions, I most certainly can relate to how you feel, and wish so much that I could help you. At least knowing that others care and support us, does mean a lot, as you rightly stated.

Please know that you can come here anytime you feel a need to talk ... about anything you want. This can offer a release that we often badly need. I hope to hear back from you again soon.

Sherry 🌸🐶💕