Not coping with severe depression

@Jayneinpain

How are you feeling tonight lovely?

Good evening @Leventia.

So good to hear from you. I am really rather good, I shan't write for long tonight. There are hundreds of flying bugs in the house and they are attracted by the light of the computer.

I will write something more substantial in the morning. Please know that hearing from you brings a smile to my face.

Sleep well.

That is soooo sweet of you to say that. Hearing that you are feeling good is honestly the best news I have heard today. You honestly have the same effect on me and always manage to pip a smile on my face. Sorry I wasn't able to respond earlier due to my babysitting duties. I finish work early on Fridays and will have much more time tomorrow. I hope you sleep well and look forward to hearing from you tomorrow. Sweet dreams

Good morning to you @Leventia,

Well, the bugs have gone but left thousands of fine, tiny, wings everywhere. I'm not the world's greatest housekeeper but even i will have to get around and dust and vacuum.

It is lovely to hear of you babysitting. My nephews and nieces are all parents themselves now. I am the youngest in my family and was only 5 when I became an aunt for the first time. The youngest of them is now 27.

i thought i would go back and answer the questions i asked of you about family. As i said , i am the youngest by far. I have two sisters and a brother. I have no contact with any of them. The sister closest to me in age is a chronic alcoholic and has had several strokes but still drinks. I offered to go and live with her and try to help out but she said there was nothing wrong with her. It was everyone else who had a problem with her drinking.

My parents died several years ago. Dad was four days away from his 84th birthday and mum a year later while still 84. We had lost contact about three years before that.I was living overseas when dad died and couldn't get back for his funeral. That saddened me. I think i had the closest relationship with dad of any of us. That used to anger my mother terribly.

i have three children who are all married, two girls and then my son. I will ask your indulgence and leave that there for now.

It seems like it is going to be another warm day here. The birds are everywhere this morning. Perhaps they are cleaning up the remaining bugs from last night.

I wish you a happy day. Enjoy your short work day. Know that you keep me smiling If you can, share a smile with those you see. It might be the only happiness in their day.

Hiya @Jayneinpain hope you are enjoying your day so far. Thank you for sharing personal details surrounding your family and answering the same questions you raised with me. Its always nice learning more about others. Sorry to hear about your sisters addiction. Addictions of any kind can be extremely difficult to overcome, particularly when the individual doesn't recognise that there is a problem. Be very proud of yourself for knowing that you did try and assist her and did your best. I'm very sorry to hear that your parents are no longer with us and that you weren't able to attend your father's funeral. Occasionally some things are just out of our control unfortunately. The beautiful memories you shared will always remain with you and have a place in your heart. It's really warm here today as well with the temperature reaching 37. I hope you are taking care of yourself and feeling even better than yesterday. Knowing you felt better yesterday really did cheer me up.

It is lovely to share with you @Leventia. You have certainly lightened my load. I hope i can do the same for you as time goes by.

Do you have plans for this afternoon? If i am correct in my guess about where you are, it looks like you might get a storm this evening. I miss those afternoon storms that chase the heat of the day away.

Do you have any more questions for me?

@Jayneinpain it's really nice to hear that your load has been lightened as a consequence of our chats. I'm so glad I made the decision to visit these forums several days ago. I don't really have anything planned for tonight at this stage. Will try and have a very quick siesta as I struggled to sleep cause of the heat last night. Do you have anything exciting planned for tonight or over the weekend?

Regarding the weather I'm not quite sure if we are expecting storms tonight. I had a quick look at the weather forecasts and couldn't find any information about the change. You are definitely right though, rain can provide some much needed relief after a day of extreme heat.

@Jayneinpain i would love to know if you speak any other languages ? I can speak 3 languages. English, non fluent Greek and Italian as I can count from 1-10 in Italian 😂

i wish i could @Leventia. However, by your standard of counting to 10, I can speak French and I know enough to ask, "Parlez vous Anglais?". After that I'm stuck.

I grew up in a very multi-cultural community where there were very few of us who had both parents who spoke English. We did some Italian lessons and sang a few songs in that language. It is something that interests me a great deal but my pronouncation leaves a lot to be desired.

Hi @Leventia,

No plans for tonight. There is a local 'social' that happens every Friday but I stopped going because everyone seemed to be there as part of a couple or family. It may sounds silly, but i hate going out on my own.

I would love to have a real date. Back in the old days, when I had a friday night date, i would float through my Fridays. I would be planning my outfit and hair do so i would be able to het ready quickly. I guess i am too old for that sort of thing these days.

What would your ideal Friday night include?