Support needed, support given ~ no religon or politics please...

I am so glad you are distracting @Former-Member, would it be possible to slow down your medication reduction, maybe plateau the medication when times get tough, just till your mind adjusts to the changes?

Yes lately i am struggling with the stigma of MI, i am finding myself easily triggered with news stories and such.

have you seen a beautiful mind? it is a fantastic movie about Schizophrenia.

It is ok @Former-Member i don't want to distress you anymore, I spoke to @Appleblossom about it. It is difficult to deal with, i have always been hated by society, i should not have reached out, i know i will always be rejected. i just hope i am not rejected from this forum too 😞

Take care Anna, enjoy your movie and try to rest as best you can. i know the heart ache of ruminating, i do it often, it is not an easy cycle to break.

hugs my friend

Jacques

Hi @Former-Member,

Yes i do understand government agencies can really stress you out, i have a big stressor comming up, i am going to have my DSP discontinued i think next year, so back onto no money again, it was so tough having no money for 7 years last time, i am trying to save this year for the time ahead. i hope your application is successful it would be nice for you and your partner to have a home of your own, away from family.

I am glad this attempt of medication reduction is going better than in the past. it is always difficult going off meds.

You are so lucky to be in such a loving relationship, i have pushed all friends and family away to protect them from me, i have only this forum as a support network now. i don't know why i am so disliekd either, i know it is something about me, but i don't know what. anyway i am used to rejection, i have had to deal with it my whole life. it has become part of who i am.

I am going to try and find the soloist, a beautiful mind brought me to tears, my aunt has Schizophrenia and it helped me understand her condition and made me scared i am going the same way.

i am so glad today is a better day for you, enjoy it while it lasts, cherrish it and use it to get you through the tough times. that is what i do 🙂

Namaste Anna

Jacques

Namaste, everyone. I'm not posting as much on the forum this week because I am struggling to process things happening offline. Paranoia lurking around a lot after each of the extra outings I am going to. Combined with erratic sleeping, I'm feeling emotionally exhausted and not able to engage here as well as usual.

@Jacques, I have had hard experiences with social groups on the net too. The main thing that has troubled me over the years is trolling. I think the only thing I ever really did wrong to make me a target is being too enthusiastically present on internet sites in the past and mainly posting my creative works, which obviously not everyone is going to like. This kind of thing has been dogging me on and off for years. I just had another trolling moment last night. At this point, I get momentarily shaken by these experiences but it quickly turns to a feeling that these poor people spending their time doing this are the really pathetic ones.

I tell you this to let you know that it is not that society hates you. Just that the internet (and life) is a bumpy experience at times and difficult and unjust things do happen to most of us. I know how hard things like this can be but please try not to take it as something to attack yourself with. This kind of stuff says a lot more about those who are doing it than about us. They are the ones with the much bigger problems. In your case, it is an injustice you have experienced, again something that happens to many of us. Again I say, it doesn't mean you are hated by society. Certainly at SANE forum, you are very well appreciated.

@Former-Member, thinking of you even though I'm not writing a lot at the moment. Glad you are processing the medication reduction better than in the past and that you have so resourcefully found a psychologist to support your decisions about medication at this time. Hugs to you.

@Former-Member, just want to chime in with more of what the others are saying about adjustment time needed in your new situation with work. You have taken this on with courage and determination. I believe you will make it in this endeavour and that it will get gradually easier and more natural to do with each week that passes. You have done it before, which says to me that the resources are there within you. We are all here cheering you on.

If I've neglected anyone here, please forgive me. As I said, I'm very preoccupied at the moment. Earlier in the week my doctor diagnosed me with COPD and put on a steroid inhaler in the mornings. I also get the results of a chest x-ray today and am nervous about anything else that might be found after my years of heavy smoking. Not so surprising things are getting a bit on top of me at the moment.

Thanks for being here everyone.

At the docs. All good news today. Sorry, don't think I should have posted that last message in such a spun out state. Thanks for bearing with me at times.

hi @Former-Member, they have changed how the DSP is granted, you need to have a government certified phycologist verify you have a serious MI, and i don't see one.

I know it will cause stress, last time i had no income my mum gave me $500 a year to live on, it was really tough to pay for food, clothing and bills on that, i lived on cheese sandwiches for lunch and dinner every day just to survive. it made me very sick at the time.

I have sort of resigned myself to the fact it was always a temporary thing haveing government payments, i knew i was not going to get them forever, mum and i are trying to save as much as possible to try to live on after it is discontinued.

I will see when the time comes what they require me to do then see if i can meet their requirements.

Thank you for your conern @Former-Member, it is heart warming knowing someone cares 🙂

Namaste

Jacques

@Former-Member

I loved both The Soloist and A Beautiful Mind . I hope @Jacques enjoys The Solist when he finds it. I have watched and read most things about MI before the internet came online.

I also thought that @Mazarita 's long post was clear and caring. It didnt seem spun out to me at all.

I also thought it was an interesting discussion about trolling .. and respect and appreciation for this forum.

Take care all.