Support needed, support given ~ no religon or politics please...

good night @PeppiPatty, will be thinking of you tomorrow

Hello @Former-Member, @Jacques, @Ellie, @Appleblossom, we did one job this morning and when we got home my hubby fell asleep and slept for hours , feeling a bit low today , hope he feels better tomorrow

Hi @Shaz51,

Sorry i have not popped in to say hi to you lately, i am having some troubles and feeling really low, i have got into toruble here a few times this week, i wanted to be careful.

I hope your hubby is feeling a little better tonight. Yes depression does make you tired, i have been sleeping most days lately, i am only awake for about 3 hour blocks.

great to hear from you @Jacques, hope you have a good night sleep tonight

my hubby is still feeling a little low tonight , better than this morning but have to wait and see how he is in the morning

Yes i hope i sleep well too, but i don't hold out much hope.

Yes, it is a weird thing with depression every day can be up or down, you and hubby just need to ride the waves. i hope he is feeling better tomorrow.

Thank you @Jacques for your words of support

Hi PeppiPatty.

I did get those pages thank you, but not until I did a bit of back-scanning to find them. I don't log on here every day, so 5 pages of posts soon turn into 6, then 7 etc and I had to go back a long way to find those pages. Since I was diagnosed, I've read so much about BPD that my head was swimming with all the info. It took me awhile to fully understand that I actually had a major problem and required help with it. So desperate was I to get better (even if not perfect) I sold my home and moved an hour and a half to a new major Victorian city just so I could get into a DBT program. They do have much better care here than I was receiving in my old home town, but even now I often feel rejected and lost. It's early days of DBT yet and I still have a long way to go, but I think some aspects of the program are helping.

The homework can be difficult because this week we were supposed to use "TIP" skills to reduce emotions following a crisis, but I've either been busy with doctor's appointments and blood tests, then follow-up GP appointments to actually have a major crisis. I've been visiting a friend regularly, but we just sit around bored all day while she smokes something she really shouldn't and eats herself out of house and home. She's on a depot medication. So a "crisis" never really arose, therefore I haven't done that part of my homework or used the skills and we have to go through it at DBT this very afternoon. I feel like a little school girl who's going to get told off for not doing the homework, even though I know that's not how they operate.

Yet another change of medication too. Drop my old meds and only use the new ones. Totally useless!! I barely got any sleep at all, which is an early warning sign that I'm becoming unwell. I'm really struggling to see why I keep trying to survive at all. I'm older and have no prospects of ever having anyone meaningful in my life again. My future down here has also become a little murky and causing me stress. Funds are a worry as most of you will know. I'm officially employed, but only work one day a week and so my weekly income is actually worse than the dole and I can't get rent assistance either. It's really wearing me down as I watch the last of my savings fitter away and I have nowhere to turn.

Anyway, I'll battle on as best I can and that's all any of us can do I suppose. For those of us with a MI, life throws us some curved balls as the Americans say, but we just have to hang in there. We only get one shot at this old world and I'm trying hard to realise that. Sometimes eternal rest seems the better option, but I know it's not and so keep on struggling.

Kind regards to you all,

Ellie.

a, my husband is on depot needle once per fortnight......and about 2 days before, he starts to change......

I have been thinking about you since I posted half of the diagnosis. I was praying it wasnt going to caise more harm than good because all this.....info......

I'm 48 years old. I went to the GP on Monday, feeling really really insecure, I was saying to my husband.....should we change our doctors, do you think I'm wasting their time?

But I have an appiontment to see a Psychiatrist asap. cool. They really are wonderful doctors I see. He is seeing these doctors to morrow. Fantastic. They really really want to help poor people and people struggling with times of MI. and other unmet needs.

You write that you sold your home. I guess, thinking positively that you can spend times thinking of new ways of expressing my creativity. theres a great Anne Tyler novel....Ille find the name of it that is about restarting after 60 years old.

What I've liked about your posts in the past, is that you acknowledge how you are but you seem to also...float to other people's lives and touch on their stuff and then, get on with it. This doesnt really make sence does it. I like your ....ability to take care of yourself online so wondering if this reaches into your own life?? Just a little murkyilly.

I like you visit your friend who is struggling with depot. My husband has had years of this but at 48, amazingly, he turned his back on it to be with me.

So what about the green....... jeepers kreepers, My husbands story is on ...Welcome WEdnesday, a few have been posted after it by @Strugglingmum and @Drac0

Like you and so many other pople on this soderful site, we will not be given awards but just to visit this lady deserves an award and I acknowledge your compassion. At 48 years old, I feel that my life is drawing into .....maybe working in my own area. I workas a carer in the community just 2 jobs per fortnight. But my passion is artwork and my dog Arlo. But me and husband, we try and do something nice each day xx

I'm just doing my best to get through the days at the moment.-- sending you hugs to help you @Former-Member