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OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi there

This is my first post . I'll try and make it brief.

I've had OCD for 30 years now and it involves constant visual distractions. I am always trying NOT to look at inappropriate (private) parts when talking to people and also my peripheral vison (eyes flicking back and forward) with people in the corner of my vision.

The peripheral vision problem may involve being distracted by people whenever they come into my field of view e.g at a cafe I must either face a wall where I can't see anybody or put an arm up to shield my eyes.

I remember the exact day in school (year 9) I was sitting in Geography class watching a documentary on the television and casually glanced at the crutch of the guy sitting to the right of me. I thought in my head that 'you can't look there!' and ever since that moment my staring/peripheral vision OCD has made life a struggle ever since.

As far as therapies are concerned , you name it and I have defintiely tried it, from psychiatrists to spiritual healers and all of the medications that that you can poke a stick at.

I had a break from traditional treatments for quite a number of years and tried the natural healing side of things, with the occasional visit to my GP for SRI scripts. At one stage I was borderline ready to give up on living entirely.

As a last resort I decided to reconnect with my psychiatrist to see if anything new regarding treatments had popped up. He told me there were not alot of options apart from the usual SRI medications .

Almost as an aside he mentioned that ADHD was closely related to OCD and that there can often be a combination of the two.

He told me there have been some success stories with the use of PRESCIBED STIMULANTS for some types of OCD. I was asked if I wanted to give it a try and after thinking about it for half a second I said 'yes'.

The following day I popped the new medication into my mouth and had my early morning walk with the dogs.

Roughly an hour later I noticed something I hadn't felt in 30 years.

Another dog walker was approaching and usually I would have strolled in the other direction as the thoughts and anxiety would overwhelm me.

But something had changed. It was as if an intencity volume switch had been turned down inside my head. I was able to make much better eye contact and felt a new internal confidence .

The level of intencity with the OCD thoughts had diminished quite a bit.

I have continued taking dthe stimulants everyday (morning and lunchtimes) ,I do not feel like I am on any medications at all, (not like some I have had in the past)

The new STIMULANT has helped my OCD more than any other medication.

I would say that the improvement is 50 to 60 % better, life is easier then it has been for many years.

I guess you could say the stimulant helps with the less intense OCD inducing environments ie going to the shops, walking in the park and general day to day engagements involving people.

Just thought I'd better let eveybody out there who suffers from a similar form of OCD that this new treatment helps me a lot and maybe it can help them also. I could not mention the name of the medication directly as per the rules of this forum.

Thanks and good luck

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hello @Tyler01, @ocdstaring, @Marlin81, @EdNotMyRealName, @Watercolor

Remember to put a @ in front so they can receive the email message from you

Hope you are ok today

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi teardust22

I think everything is controlled by fear.
Some concentration exercise may help (one mentioned earlier in a previous post )

Pleas don't be too hard on yourself. You are still very young and should find a therapist that you feel comfortable with to work through the latest available treatments that help many people. (Eg CBT,new meds etc)
This form of OCD is not only very intense but is also very difficult to talk about due to aspects of subject matter involved.

Please understand you have a great opportunity to address this condition and lessen it's affecting your future, as you are young person (and sensitive) with a lot to offer the world.

Good luck mate and take care

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

I am 31 and in January 2017 I began to notice that I was having anxiety-like feelings around a few people - certain men I worked with. It was werid, I had this anxiety-like feeling to ensure that I was not looking at their crotches and I felt as though they thought I was looking at their crotches. This issues was pretty contained at first and didn't affect my relationships with friends and family. But as the months have rolled on it has spread, and now I have much higher anxiety around both men (crotches) and women (cleavage) and it is with bascially everyone (except my wife for the most part).

When the issue began to get heavier I decided I need to tell my wife, who was very supportive, and we decided to find a psychologist. The first doctor I found was useless to me. She treated broad anxiety and didn't seem to have a handle on my specific OCD issues. The next doctor I went to specialized in OCD patients. He and I have been working together for 3 months now, but I am not feeling like I am making any progress. I have been doing a lot of reading on this and he is recommending what are seemingly all the right things to face my fears and create a desensitization, but again, I feel as though my anxiety is only getting worse. Also, my job has me working with a multitude of high-level executives from fortune 500 companies, I feel as though practicing staring on them would end in me losing clients and my job.

I could use some feedback from anyone really:

- When is the right time to surpass pschology work and see a psychiatrist for a medicine prescription?

- I fear that using meds will have such side-effects that they could ruin other parts of my life (sexual drive, energy, turn me into a zombie). Can anyone describe their experiences?

- Has anyone gotton to a point where they can really get through daily life (jobs, social events, family gatherings) as though they don't have OCD or anxiety?

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi SL1515, welcome to the SANE forums. I am sure you will get some good support and advice from the members here. OCD can be such a debilitating condition.

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi SL,

I too suffer from this - have been using medication for nearly 10 years now.

The doctor diagnosed it as Fear Psychosis. Medication for OCD are SSRI-type medicines. You can google for extra knowledge. Would advice you to visit a psyciatrist and get necessary medication.

On desensitization - I too read a lot - but unlike say 'Repeated-Washing--hand' type ocd which just affects you - and where there is no counter signal coming to you --- the problem with 'Staring' OCD is the signal from other humans that you get - people avoiding you, talking of your behaviour, etc - which further increases your sensitivity - and contradicts your exercise aim of desensitivity.

What medication has helped is to - ignore / over-ride this guilt emotion / overcome the stares from people - overcome the thought that people think you are wierd - and still function normally - which ironically in turn makes the people around too to get back to normal - and in turn reinforces your motivation.

After taking medication, I no longer avoid social outings. I just take an extra dose sometimes.

It is not addictive, nor have i seen side-effects till now for nearly a decade that I have been taking. Once the doctor felt, I may have gained some weight - I think one side effect is constipation - then he changed the medication.

Hope the above helps.

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Everyone is different, as mentioned my medications tend to stop me dwelling on how badly I feelI may have been perceived in a social situation.
The more formal the environment the worse the OCD seems to be.
Mendicatios can help Some people but not others and side effects tend to be minor (in my case).
But give it a go as I know others who have received a lot of benefit from ssri or snri medications.
Also undiagnosed coexisting conditions are often apparent as in my own particular situation.
Good luck

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

I can't get medication until I'm 18. And I also don't think I have enough money. I live in another country away from the country I would die to go back. I can't stand another year if I don't get accepted to transfer to college there. I have no friends at all and my family doesn't support me. They can't know this. For two years I'm an animal in a cage secluded from society. It's very hard for me to go out in public, I think everyone and cars are looking at me, and I can't stop what I do. I sometimes starve in dorm. How did you learn to cope with it all these years?

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi @teardust22
Please try and find a doctor that you feel comfortable with to talk to.
CBT therapies can help. You are very young still and it is important to get help as soon as you can.
There may be support groups in your city where you can meet like minded people and chat through issues or perhaps learn of successful approaches in tackling the condition.
I have made great friends myself with the volunteer work I do in the Mental health area . It helps to know you are not alone and there are other people in a similar situation.
Don't give up mate. There is help out there .
Good luck and try not be hard on yourself , I understand that this is difficult sometimes but please Knoe that you are not alone and yuh have alot to offer the world. Take care

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Thank you

When I can I will. I dont think support groups suffer from this ocd but I have a fb suppoort group. I will try tho its very hard with this ocd ;o You too. Don't give up. I hope it gets all better 🙂

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

@teardust22

I have never met any other OCDers with the same version as mine but I can understand that it may bea difficult subject to talk about and as a result may keep their struggles to themselves.

If you manage to find an OCD group you will find that the people there are genuinely interested iin what you have to say.

I am as confused by why my brain works the way it does and at the same time fascinated with other peoples own form of OCD. Many people with OCD have coexisting conditions and behaviours unique to them. (as in my related adhd and anxiety issues) I find it is very hepful to learn about anothers form of the condition and the steps they have taken to alleviate or control their particular symptoms.

I know that it is very hard to sit in on a support group when dealing with a visual type of OCD such as ours and it is perhaps more obvious to other people in the room that something is 'going on'.

But, you will find that they will not judge you as others have but help you to understand yourself and affirm that you are not as alone as you may have felt before.

When you find a support group I am sure you will feel the same.

Good luck mate and stay strong.

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