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OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi there

This is my first post . I'll try and make it brief.

I've had OCD for 30 years now and it involves constant visual distractions. I am always trying NOT to look at inappropriate (private) parts when talking to people and also my peripheral vison (eyes flicking back and forward) with people in the corner of my vision.

The peripheral vision problem may involve being distracted by people whenever they come into my field of view e.g at a cafe I must either face a wall where I can't see anybody or put an arm up to shield my eyes.

I remember the exact day in school (year 9) I was sitting in Geography class watching a documentary on the television and casually glanced at the crutch of the guy sitting to the right of me. I thought in my head that 'you can't look there!' and ever since that moment my staring/peripheral vision OCD has made life a struggle ever since.

As far as therapies are concerned , you name it and I have defintiely tried it, from psychiatrists to spiritual healers and all of the medications that that you can poke a stick at.

I had a break from traditional treatments for quite a number of years and tried the natural healing side of things, with the occasional visit to my GP for SRI scripts. At one stage I was borderline ready to give up on living entirely.

As a last resort I decided to reconnect with my psychiatrist to see if anything new regarding treatments had popped up. He told me there were not alot of options apart from the usual SRI medications .

Almost as an aside he mentioned that ADHD was closely related to OCD and that there can often be a combination of the two.

He told me there have been some success stories with the use of PRESCIBED STIMULANTS for some types of OCD. I was asked if I wanted to give it a try and after thinking about it for half a second I said 'yes'.

The following day I popped the new medication into my mouth and had my early morning walk with the dogs.

Roughly an hour later I noticed something I hadn't felt in 30 years.

Another dog walker was approaching and usually I would have strolled in the other direction as the thoughts and anxiety would overwhelm me.

But something had changed. It was as if an intencity volume switch had been turned down inside my head. I was able to make much better eye contact and felt a new internal confidence .

The level of intencity with the OCD thoughts had diminished quite a bit.

I have continued taking dthe stimulants everyday (morning and lunchtimes) ,I do not feel like I am on any medications at all, (not like some I have had in the past)

The new STIMULANT has helped my OCD more than any other medication.

I would say that the improvement is 50 to 60 % better, life is easier then it has been for many years.

I guess you could say the stimulant helps with the less intense OCD inducing environments ie going to the shops, walking in the park and general day to day engagements involving people.

Just thought I'd better let eveybody out there who suffers from a similar form of OCD that this new treatment helps me a lot and maybe it can help them also. I could not mention the name of the medication directly as per the rules of this forum.

Thanks and good luck

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hey tyler, I'm very happy to know you are still active here. I suffer from a very similar OCD has yours but mine is all about eye contact through my peripherals (excuse me if that's not the correct spelling), i can remember the exact day year month and even hour it all started, it's been about 4 years now and it only ever gets worse, i've been to 2 different phycologist and 1 therapist and no luck, all of them seem to have been very surprised and 2 of them slightly laugh at it.

After finishing my anti - depressants and anxiety medication, which did nothing to help, I am living hopeless staring at the ceiling every night trying to figure out how the hell i'm suppouse to fix this. It is especially bad in classrooms, the bus, car rides, and other similar situations.

What do you recommend me to do? I am a very ambicious kid, never would i consider taking my life until i'm done doing everything i plan to do since the day I was born, I'm amazed at the fact that there are even people out there suffering with the same and at the same time, very thankfull to not be alone.

I'm thankfull for any kind of help you may give.

(Big sorry for my english, i'm from portugal)

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi Ed

Nice to hear from you.

Everyones who lives with OCD has variations and co-exsiting issues that make their situation unique to them.

In my own personal situation I have learnt to not to be so hard on myself for behaving oddly (eyes flicking,crazy or unhinged social performance) or for failing to behave as 'normally' as I would have liked.

I haved moved on from and accepted responsibility for anything that I may have screwed up in the past whether it was primarily a direct result of the OCD behaviours or otherwise.

I don't think it helps me to get bitter and continually blame the OCD for everything that goes wrong in my life, even if it may very well be the case in many situations it is still rather pointless to blame anything outside of myself (which the OCD is in many ways). All that seems to do is stop me from moving forward and only leads to the inevitable depression and self loathing that doesn't help anyone.

The hardest part of this form of OCD is it's ability to self sabotage opportunities in life and cause unwanted social isolation.

Allowing a level of acceptance for my situation is important to ensure I move forward with my life and stay on top of things. (ie avoid depression/self hatred)

It is a daily mind game of constant attempts to trick the OCD into thinking the opposite way to how it is trying to think (if you know what I mean)

The frustrating thing is I personally don't care what other people think of me to the same extent the OCD does. This leads me to live the life of an extrovert stuck in an introverts body.

Medication is helpful in ensuring I move forward and stay positive, as is allowing myself to put steps in place to avoid situations that may cause unecessary stress or anxiety but at the same time not avoiding life/work related responsibilities.

Stay positive mate, there are many of us out there.

Take care and all the best !!

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi Tyler,

I am new to this site. Is there a way to private message you. I have questions regarding the type of medication you take. I read an older article you wrote explaining how excited you were taking this new meds. I have the same OCD starring and have had it for over 10 years. If there is a way to speak with you.

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

how can I learn about this SPECIFIC meds so I can ask my doctor. Please!

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Let me know thanks!

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi Marlin
As mentioned the medication is a stimulant often used for ADHD patients in combination with an antidepressant/anxiety SNRI.
Initially the benefits were more obvious but seemed to fade out after around 6 months or less.
The tablets help remove some of the anxiety and general concentration .
I am sure your doctor would know the above medications by name.
Good luck with everything .

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

this seems a really nice and polite way of saying no one really has a clue as to why or how medications work or do not work. the chemical imbalance theories of mental illness is not well supported by scientific endeavour etc.

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi tyler. old thread I know but i just wanted to mention my personal experience from what I remember , which relates to the other persons point about "wanting".

originally i had problems thinking that others thought i was gay and remember i would test if others thought i was gay by checking if they covered their privates. It was someething like that anyway I remember . it was about 25 years ago so my memory of it obviously is not perfect. this developed into the problem of compulsive staring.

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi there
It is all related to social anxiety and fear of rejection.
The eyes flick almost automatically but never directly stare. Other behaviours include Walking funny ( like a drunk) when not wanting to appear odd , breathing leading to hyperventilating , peripheral distraction from inanimate objects when reading or watching tv etc etc
It involves Chemical issues in the brain and neural pathways . But obviously everyone is different and co existing issues are always apparent .
Cheers

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

I'm 17 and I have the exact thing for two and a half years Wherever I go, whoever I look, whatever time my eyes will look at their privates. Its like my eyes are programmed to do that. They appear from nowhere and my eyes are there than I look down because I'm afraid they saw. Its because im unconsciously anxious. The brain knows what you fear. No matter the age, sex, race of the person it happens I have no friends anymore. Last January I had a friend but she stopped talking to me. I am always afraid people and people in cars are watching me.

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