Living with depression is debilitating!!!!!

Hi FairyFox,

Welcome to the forums. Thanks for sharing your experiences - it's a big step and takes courage.

You have overcome a lot it seems! Breast cancer is a terrible challenge to come up against, and to have the strength to get through that, is inspiring.

You mentioned you've experienced domestic violence. Have you been able to seek help for this? Even if you have, I would imagine this has a significant impact on you. It seems like you're linked in to health care professionals, however, have you tried a counsellor/psychologist who specialises in domestic violence? If this is something that interests you, you could try;

Relationships Australia: they provide counselling for abused partners. 1300-364-277

National Sexual Assault, Family & Domestic Violence Counselling Line: 1800 737 732

I'm sorry to hear you have been in this state for such a period of time. I don't think you should give up on the idea of getting better though. Hopefully this forum will help you, even if it's just being around like-minded people.

I'm curious to know what the reason for you to be happy is. It sounds like your self talk jumped in before you could share it with us.

Again, welcome to the forums. Have a look around the place & feel free to contirbute to other discussions also.

🙂

NikNik

Hi NikNik,

Thanks for replying to my post. I'm not surprised others haven't as nothing changes. I thought instead of pretending everythings alright I'd be open on here & see where it goes. I know it sounds "woe is me" & probably is it's just that it seems even when I do poke my head out nobody seems interested, or care. I would just like to be able to talk openly with others who might have an understanding.

In answer to your question on counselling, relationship or otherwiswe, I've had the lot & am still seeing my psychiatrist each fortnight. In all honesty I think I'm about as bad as I've ever been, nothing seems to be helping. I've told her how I feel & am told that the meds are as good as it gets (well hell if that's the case what hope is there).

I've come to realise over the last few years that I've even lost any social skills I mmight have had. Anyways, I'll leave it there today & see what happens.

Thanks for listening again 🙂

Hi and welcome!

Depression is a terrible illness and of course it's "invisible." That makes it difficult for other people to realize how much we're going through. I hope having this place to share helps, fairyfox.

Hello FairyFox

I'm new here too and also find very few replies but that just might be because there is no answer to my question which is even more depressing.

There are two aspects of your post that really hit home with me these were your quote, “It's a situation of "the more I hide the worse I get and the worse I get the more I hide".

And, your discussion about becoming an expert at “the cover up” over the years to the point where you had your photo in the local paper for being voted the happiest customer service person for that month when inside you were suffering so deeply.

I too have not been able to find help and have had friends drop off. I also feel as though I have been an actor most of my life.

You have been soo strong to get through all that you have. When you say that the strange part is that you now have good reason to be happy. What is happening for you right now?

Welcome to forums, Maude.

Your post is so insightful, and perceptive. Looking forward to seeing more of you on here.

I was normal once: worst two minutes of my life!