I was only thinking about you a few moments ago
@The-red-centaur.I haven't really recovered from ED, as I still struggle with some mild food issues now. And I'm not normal weight or underweight. I'm obese, and I hate it.
I had anorexia & bulimia in my late teens, so some time ago now. I was quite underweight at that time, and caused a lot of concern for my caregivers. I was threatened with hospital at that point & tube feeding, which I didn't want. I gradually ate more, gained weight, but it took probably about 4 or 5years to recover without professional help. ED is a form of SH and control, so now I have a different form of SH. But I've not needed to do that for a few months now.
It's about finding coping strategies that are healthy and work to give you a sense of control.
You need and deserve help
@The-red-centaur. You & your health are so important.
Have you checked out the Butterfly Foundation website- here is the link-
https://thebutterflyfoundation.org.au/And talk to your counsellor as well to help you. You've no need to feel bad or ashamed of what's happening with you.