Thanks Ivana, I've actually been through the mental health system for DECADES, and experienced it's worst excesses. I'm sorry to tell you that it's not a good system, and no matter HOW well you do your job they will hold your mental illness AGAINST you instead of making allowances (like they do, or try to do, or say they try to do, for people with other disabilities). I'm very sorry to be the harbinger of bad news, but there is an excellent and happy life to be made if one has a mental illness but it excludes paid work and the mental health system, and i'm very sorry to have to tell you that. i did excellent qualtiy work over and over again for over 20 years in the paid workforce (i was a top student at school) but they discriminated against me constantly. I suppose they thought it was fair to discriminate for some reason, but I was turning up on time, well-dressed, with a professional attitude (admittedly my attitude did suffer after a while and I kept trying to work after this point, with a bad attitude) and doing good work, and they STILL gave me hell, for having a health condition/disability, no less! Eventually, I gave up - let 'em pay to keep a top notch worker on the pension, if they so want to! Mind you, the mainsteam Australian culture is pretty ruthless all 'round - I have a friend who had a sister with down syndrome and she got sacked from a sheltered workshop for not working fast enough - Incredible! There really is something badly wrong with the entire mainstream Australian culture if you ask me but it's still sunny and rich here (I hope the weather is ok wherever you are. Where I am it is sunny today). There's HEAPS of support out there - you just have to know how to find it! And I don't bother with the mental health system any more - they're useless, pretty much. Not self-stigmatising is a good start - it will help you to recognise that you deserve as much courtesy and respect as anyone else, and that will help you process what you have been through and that will help you to find support. as i said, if i can help anyone at this forum, then ask away, please! and god bless x 🙂 (ps. not forgetting you will still have good and bad days, good and bad times, like everyone). ps. take it VERY easy, I have learned. If you knock yourself out there is only the mental heath system to turn to and I just don't find them helpful - quite the opposite, in fact 😞