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Please tell me the truth.

Eden1919Senior Contributor20 Apr 2018, 12:39 am AEST

Please tell me the truth.

I feel very shaken up and uncomfortable. i am not sure what to believe ether. part of me says that this is just my head but then another quite strong part of me is saying that my treatment team have been lying to me this whole time and that they are actually all plotting to destroy me. i think they have also maybe put something inside me like a chip to control me and they are also using the meds to make me think they are trying to help when actually they arent. and also they have a demon watching me cause it wont go away and also there are people watching me and i feel like they are going to attack me it is hard to explain. but what should i do is this just my head? or is it not and should i try and get away from all of them so they cant find me? i am really scared right now and i dont know what to do or who to talk to or um it is hard to explain but i just really need some advice. thanks if you read this.

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Sans911Senior Contributor12 June 2018, 12:41 am AEST

Re: Please tell me the truth.

@Eden1919

In no way am I trying to minimise how you feel or how much pain you are in, but you have been feeling like you feel tonight for as long as I've known you. And the beautiful thing is, you are still with us, you still reach out the forums, so I truly believe there is some hope in you to continue living.

I understand how awful it is to feel the way you do for a long time. It is an awful place to be. But I truly hope in time you can focus more on living a life for you in which there is hope, peace and even joy.

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PitzSenior Contributor12 June 2018, 1:05 am AEST

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@Eden1919

How great is the fact you are going to see your psychologist tomorrow. You are taking steps to improve your MI and that's the best thing you can do.

As hard as it might seem to see the light at the end on the tunnel, as long as you take baby steps you will reach it.

I'm seeing my psychiatrist on Wednesday and I'm on my 5th low day. I can't see ways out of it either but I try and focus on 10min being grateful and happy during the day.

Most of the time I have to act it as it feels like a chore but it still releases endorphins.

I too am putting one step in front of the other and I'm sure we will get through this.

All the best

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PitzSenior Contributor12 June 2018, 1:07 am AEST

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@Eden1919

How great is the fact you are going to see your psychologist tomorrow. You are taking steps to improve your MI and that's the best thing you can do.

As hard as it might seem to see the light at the end on the tunnel, as long as you take baby steps you will reach it.

I'm seeing my psychiatrist soon and I'm on my 5th mood day. I can't see ways out of it either but I try and focus on 10min being grateful and happy during the day.

Most of the time I have to act it as it feels like a chore but it still releases endorphins.

I too am putting one step in front of the other and I'm sure we will get through this.

All the best

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JoeTheLionSenior Contributor12 June 2018, 1:21 am AEST

Re: Please tell me the truth.

Hi @Eden1919

Sorry that you are struggling so much. It sounds like a really awful time just now. Hang in there yeah. You've gotten through these really tough times so often.

Will send you an email.

All the best

Joe the Lion