I am- Overwhelmed & Traumatised I need your support!!

@Leventia

May I ask you another question Leve, I'm just curious that's all?

Of course @Former-Member, ask away hun

@Leventia

Ok I'm back, sorry my Fur Babies needed me,& I had call of nature!

I was wondering if you shave your head, is that the way you like looking as in fashion?

I have very long hair, tho I did cut it recently, as it was down past my waist, & was in need of healing as I have had long hair since 2 years old. Out of 5 girls, (I am the fifth) woops!

I am the only one that had the long think hair all my life. Mum kept my hair long, she loved my hair. I have Irish, German, & English, family Heritage. My German Great Grand Parents are buried in Sydney, Roukwood Cemetery. (that spelling may be wrong)

Anyway, My Great Grand Parents, came to Australia, in a Ship from Germany, to start a new life & brought with them, Porcelain Ware, to start a Business here.

My other Grand Parents are Irish, & I met them when I was a tiny child, I never met my Grand Father English one as he was buried in England from serving in the Army, & he was buried as a War Hero there. I saw my Grand mother (English one) once before she passed away. I have never known anything about my Great Grandparents (English).

I saw a photo of my Grand Father, the English one, he is so handsome!

My mother was always stunning, right up until she passed on, & my Dad was very talented, & clever, yet very playful, & easy going, but Dad was loose lipped so to speak, & did cause me to have a shocking self image all my life, from the things he said that I was from as young as 4 years old. I have never completely been able to heal, from it, yet slowly I am doing better, to a certain extent! With GODS Word & Love to guide me! Amen <><<

Edited: 5 girls

@Former-MemberDo you prefer men who have hair by any chance?

@Leventia

What Nationalities are your Heritage Leve plz, if you don't mind sharing. I am so interested in some different Nationalities. Remembe,r I grew up with all the Europeans where I lived, my mother gave me a Spanish name to welcome them to our Country.

These songs that I am listening to are so beautiful! I adore music I posted many music links in my Thread, there are many on other pages just because I loved to listen to them. They are linked to my moods, & emotions, for my healing, & pleasure. I have loved music all my life. Mum & Dad did too, they played a lot of the Classic Musicals On Record I always listened & I ended up loving Musicals & Dancing, I collected a whole lot of Classic Musicals on DVD, & Video. I adore the dance movies, I danced so much before my accident. Now it hurts, & I walked for fitteness, power walking. I have a full gym in my house, I can only look at it at the moment. If I start using the Equiptment, I will be out of action for a long while, as I tried & thats was the outcome, not touching it until its safe.

This song thats playing is making me so teary, its called Lady, I can hardly type now!

@Leventia

I only want the will of GOD in my life, I put my life in GODS Hands as I have done everything wrong for some strange reason. I am a good person, & all I do is love from my heart. Yet I have been abused for it? & used for it? I am not a weak person, or a push over? If I told you all I would make myself go into drepession, so I better not. I can not be unstable that way, my rescue Fur Babies need me. I made a promise to love & care for them all their lives to GOD & to myself, & to them, & I will not brake that NO WAY! if I can help it! Amen!

When I say I love & Care, I will be there for you always, I do it unless I am pushed out for some reason, & that hurts BIG time worse that my body pain, & that is HUGE! Believe me!

Please avoid discussing anything which is going to make you feel depressed @Former-Member.I honestly dont think you have done anything wrong. Sounds as though you have had some terrible luck in the past which means your luck can only change for the better in the future. Im definitely here for the long term. Your fur babies are so lucky to have you and so am i xo

I had a strong feeling it was that version @Former-Member. I absolutely love it.

The duet he performs called "islands in the stream" is another fav of mine

@Former-Memberi think some of my messages arent coming through. Messages surrounding my background. Just letting you know in case you think im ignoring your questions xo

@Leventia

Yes I love that song, I had the recording, I haven't got it anymore. I have hundreds of Videos, CDS, both music, movies, & motivational Christian, Speakers, plus books that I have studied for years.

My head is aching, at the moment, I will return soon. I will go have something to eat, & let my Puppies out to play then I will come back. Will you be here Leve?

Love & Hugs!

Bella xoxo