Why are they taking advantage of me?

Thank you for your reply. It appears you and the others on sane forum are the only ones who understand what I am going through. To date everybody else has denied it. How am I supposed to cope with the ridicule that comes from the people who know they can get away with these things if they blame my illness for it? I don't want people to harass me because they know that they have an instant excuse that most others will always believe.

I continue to live the best I can everyday, also to keep to myself and not talk about this, but i am being spied on in a tremendous way. This situation I am in is so far out of hand, and has progressed so far that no matter where I go I am always subjected to harassment and laughter behind my back. Some have even mentioned to me that my emails are being read, and sometimes I feel that these people giving me a hard time are the ones with the mental issues, because some of the things I hear them say are truly absurd. A lot of the time I feel like I'm the sane one walking amongst a bunch of crazy people. I do hear what your saying about finding a person I can truly trust, but at the moment I'm still trying to figure out who it is. It also appears the people who try to hurt me the most are offended that I still somehow manage to continue with my life, and they just make more and more effort to stop me from doing this. I have always done my best to get on with life, taking up new hobbies and trying to work out and stuff.

Some people just don't realise that my life does not concern them.

I will keep thinking about who I can trust and who I can't but this is a difficult process. It will take me some time to sort things out but I do hope I get there.

Finding people who care enough about me not to ridicule or reject me as been difficult. A long time ago I decided that I had to be trusting as that if I believed the negative things about others that it would cripple me with rage and anger. In some ways I was too open and trusting but maybe it was still the best choice as I am still here and steadily doing things.

Keep posting and encouraging others ... I dont know what else to do ...

cheers Apple

Hi Amanda,

Sorry that the people around you arn't people you can trust.

Are you able to elaborate more on the time when someone said to you your emails might be getting read?

Would you happen to know word for word what exactly they said?

I was talking to someone regarding a breach of privacy that I think I had, and while he was trying to discuss it with me he said your emails are being read, then he immediately started talking over his own statement making it a big deal asking if I had shared my emails and if I had told anyone about this or if anyone else knew what I was on about. It was like it was a slip of the mouth kind of thing that he tried to brush off.

I have also recently made some complaints to the police about things, I have also been in contact with a mental health team, and while the police are quite firm blaming my illness for this, the doctors I have spoken to seem to think I'm OK (2 of them). I had to specifically ask for a third assessment, and I worry now that my treatment will not be appropriate to what is really happening. When I try to discuss my issues with people they do not even listen and halfway through my first sentence they will interrupt me and blame my illness. Repeatedly.

Hi Amanda,

So you mentioned to this person regarding a breach of privacy and then he stated "your emails are being read"-is this correct?

It sounds like he was just trying to figure out in his head how they would have gained access to your info and not that he knew with definity that your emails are being read.

Personally, i recently had a "hacker" go into my -email and access my banking info, so, quite a bit can be found out if they access a persons emails (im not suggesting this has happened to you and dont let it be a cause for concern).

Generally speaking,if a person has any privacy concerns,they can just download a reputable antivirus computer programme such as Norton.

Ok. But my concern was not the emails it was something else. I can get Norton anti-virus but it will not help the actual thing I had issues about. I was not even sure why it was mentioned in the first place. Im sorry if I'm sounding blunt about this but this whole situation is starting to frustrate me.

I don't know what to say anymore. I'm waiting for my next appointment so that I can get an appropriate counsellor.