Battling MI whilst caring for someone with MI

This is the restof that message luv!!! @utopia
Yes u r right luv. I have written down my concerns and questions and put them to the side. Cant do anything tonight.
Oh sweets, did u want to chat about whats going on? Ur too young to be falling apart luv! Hehe
Xxxxxx

Lol wrong tag? @Bella1978

Lol!!!! Yes wrong tag haha ... that was meant for u @outlander 😘😘😘 me so silly

Im glad youve written everything down. You cant do anything but rest sleep hydrate and eat now. Look after you.
Its just annoying stuff but making me spiral. Im okish though. Im startinv to think the government hates me with all the tests ive had in such a short time too. Dont worry im sick of me and the tests to lol

@outlander
Aaw u make me chuckle 😛 how could the govt hate you? Ur so awesome!!
Im not sick of u at all! I think u rock woman!
But i am sorry to hear things seem to be upsetting u luv xx

Lol i pity anyone that has to read my medical records. They prob will think im part robot always gotta have parts looked at to make sure they are working ( or not) @Bella1978
Ill be ok. Its part of life i suppose. Tomorrow's a new day though.

We just gotta take one day at a time hey sweets? Im starting to doze off luv. U be ok if i go nite nite?
@outlander

One day at a time ❤ and yes ill be ok.thanks for the chat. Been a while since we had one of our midnighters hasnt it
Goodnight Bella sleep well 😴 @Bella1978

Sweet dreams gorgeous @outlander xxxxxx

The support group sounds like a great idea @Bella1978. I hope it helps bring you some comfort tomorrow.
Unfortunately meds like that can take around 6 weeks before any sign of improvement is noticed (or not). And there is no one drug that will work for everyone with the same disorder, unfortunately.
I have heard some patients talking last year about a test you can take - not sure if it's a blood test or what - where they are able to determine from the test - which medications will work for that individual person. As far as I know, it's not covered by medicare or the private insurance companies and is around or just over the thousand dollar mark. Some of the ladies were saying that their psychiatrist had said that hopefully in the next few years, the test will come down in price to around the $200 or $300 mark.
I'm guessing you are like me and don't have any spare cash lying around, but you may want to look into it. Ask the psych or google it.
Very clever idea with the biscuits. Putting them in packs of 2. That should help the nurses and keep your mum happy.
I wonder if your mum is sleeping some during the day - maybe from boredom - that could be why she is awake some nights. So it may not be anything to do with her MI.
It sounds like she did need some form of medication to help with her psychosis. Maybe she's just been lucky til now to not need them.
I can imagine how hard it is for you to see her in hospital - with her yoyoing mood. Ups and downs. And then when she's yelling to come home, wow, that would be so tough.
From my point of thinking she needs to stay in hospital until she is compliant with her medication. But then again, I advocate for peoples rights to choose to medicate or not and I guess she is free to go home when she wants. Unless they think she's too unwell - but then they would have to section her as an involuntary patient.
Honestly, what do you think? Would she take her medications for you at home if she was there now? Maybe she would. Maybe she wouldn't. I don't know her to say. You have a better idea of that.
My psychologist appointment. Was dissapointing. Told him about mum and Switzerland. He didn't respond much other than to say he agreed people had a right to choose. But not if they have a mental illness. That was it.
He discussed me getting angry at the hospital and their wait time. But said it was logical and okay for me to be angry. Especially about the lack of customer service. But he said, in those times, that's when I need to practice my mindfulness. I said that didn't even pop into my head to do. I was too angry. He said it's practice. Try to notice early on when I'm getting angry - what is my body doing - then do my breathing exercise or meditate etc.
The rest of the session he spoke about the 80 /20 rule. To remember that when shite happens, that it may have judt been for 20 minutes or so. That the rest of the day was good. Ir like yesterday, pretty much the whole day sucked, but the other days didn't. So focus on that 80% that was good.
He was happy I didn't drink. He said I no longer have a physical craving for alcohol. That has passed. But it is a learned behavior that when Ihave strong emotions, I don't want to feel, I normally drink. So I need some other 'reward' type system - say chocolate (he has no idea I eat it all the time, so it can't be a reward). So a reward system after I've tried to sit with that feeling for 5 minutes. Then mindfulness and move on.
I know he's right. But it was a shite session. Maybe I was still in a foul mood - because when he was saying all this - in my head I'm going "ya da da da da whatever" - like a peculiar teenager.
Boy I can be stubborn when I'm annoyed. Anyway, see him again in 2 weeks.
My boy hurt his back today at school. He was at an after school event where the school band played. Then they have to carry all the instruments back to the music room. He only has a saxophone - so he helped others with their instruments. Picked up the drums in the wrong way and hurt his back. He's not a whinger with pain, but tonight he was. That shows how much it hurts. So I'll talk to the school tomorrow about OH&S. That if they want the kids to help carry and out awsy heavy instruments - then they need to teach them how to do it safely and to supervise them.
Not sure if he'll go to school tomorrow yet. Will wait til the morning and see.
Well it's almost 2.30 in the morning. So I'll log of now.
aenjoy your quieter day tomorrow. Hugs.