Fragile

Hello Fragile, have you painted these? They are beautiful. And sad. Sending you the biggest hugs.

@Appleblossom

So i caught up a little

sometimes I find it hard to keep up .

You wrote.... “My new learning is not to stay in bad situations, submitting or succumbing to paralysis of decision making for too long. I am free to leave.”

Wow!!! Such Strength courage and self kindness. I love love love it. Even when I’m the horrid situation that you faced. Choosing to take the good with you. What an incredible instruistic way to learn.

Also I agree with @Zoe7

how is the paving and for those of us like me who is slow on the uptake what is the paving.

@Appleblossom Fragile and resilient.

@mudsum Our @Appleblossom is doing some new paving outside but she can explain what she is doing much better.

Hi @Appleblossom

I take it you're a bit fragile right now - or you were yesterday - but okay - just stuck for words

And reading is helpful - which is good

I love what @mudsum wrote about a budding sense of kindness and friendship to oneself - and I so believe those words

My thought - if we have been used to accepting what is handed out for so long - most of our lives - we are very stuck in the "lump it or like it" scenario - and we get used to such a place and I have found as I grow older that this doesn't fit my independent and sparky attitude.

When we move away from ideas of the past that no longer fit we are set free - but like a young bird on the edge of the nest testing its wings - that step forward is a bit scary - uncomfortable -

But there we go - on the beginnings of flight - the discovery of self

All the best and I hope you feel better today

Dec

Freedom

Beautiful colours in that bird @Owlunar

I can go through periods of too many words and periods when I am stuck for them ... both have their up and down sides .... lol ... was philosphoical before I even heard of the word ... ha ha

I have to make the best of the situation I am in here today, and there are lot more choices open to me now, than then.

Hugs

@mudsumThank you for your enthusiasm. I am an old bird ... maybe crone ... I live a lot in my head, but also get practical every now and then. Just started on NDIS and have a new support worker and trying to be a good girl and not get depressed. Empty nesting and and giving it a bit of a tidy and remake outside now I can get into the backyard. Deciding to stay here and had skimped on paving job when I moved in 20 years ago. SO there was a lot of mulch getting walked in the house and making a mess ... boring stuff. Come Covid and lockdown and stim pack ... I thought yeah I will do my bit to help Australia's poor poor economy so I have worn a track to the stores that su-pply paving stones and topping ... not choc or caramel . .. tho it has a tan colour when wet. I also have to do a lot of physio and this is helping me be active with a bonus. Getting excited about varying the colour of my stepping stones ... old and new ... and coffee and sand and cream ...

@Maggiegets it. For most of my life I looked for organic stuff ... the weed growing in the concrete. Was an inner city girl. Not many front gardens.

Hullo @Merl

@Appleblossom

well now I’m on track.... or shall I say on the path (hahaha)

sounds great!!! Fantastic

Tracks are good.

@mudsum

@Former-Member

@Zoe7 @Owlunar

@Maggie That cuppa is wonderful ... Ta muchly.

Had a chat on msgr with old school friend last night. She has stayed more connected to smart group and went thru uni with them all. I left end Year 11. She works in a similar public service position to where I worked when I left It was sad, but real. We talked about a lovely girl/lady who took her life. Her surname and image jumped into my mind from over 40 years ago.

That’s a tough one @Appleblossom . Sad and real.

Memories are incredible, from so long ago, yet real today.

Sending a hug @Appleblossom . 💜💜🤗🤗🤗