Making order out of chaos

Hello @MDT Resolve is what I draw on most to get myself through the life I find myself in now, and yes, I agree, it increased with age, although I also had a level of it as a younger person too.

I see resolve as a part of self discipline, or perhaps self discipline as a part of resolve, not sure which.

I need to be self disciplined if I am going to meet any of my resolutions to myself. Like this morning, I decided (resolved) to sleep in today and had to be disciplined not to get up and do what was once my Monday morning routine because it's not releveant here where I live. There are simple and complex resolutions.

Because of my experiences, the things that have brought me to being mentally unwell, and the things that I've experience because of being mentally unwell, I need that sense of resoluteness, of determination, to continue to seek betterment for myself. I used to be brilliant at seeking betterment for my kids and other family, not so for myself, so it's a newish thing for me to fight for myself in this way.

I have resolved to take this year to find betterment for myself before accepting there will be none and making whatever decision that might mean for my future. For now I resolve to live and to live at the best of my ability, to find enjoyment in small things where I can.

That's an excellent point you made @MDTAbout our having greater resolve, due to our MH problems.

Although many people, including some psychologists - depict us as weak, & they seem to think that we are...

Honestly, living with CPTSD, Sleep Apnea (daily fatigue), Scoliosis (chronic pain), & the after-effects of 3 major bowel surgeries (one majorly Botched) is not easy...

My psych says that I'm very resilient, even though each day seems like a major struggle.

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Yes @MDT - I have experienced when facing mental health challenges in the past that it can create resolve to find the will to find a way forward - as I resolve not to give up. Really great thread - thank you for taking the time to share with us

Yes that's right @MDT Scoliosis is curvature of the spine abnormally or in the wrong directions. Mine has been causing me horrendous back pain (muscular) for about 20 years.

If it's discovered when you're a teenager, they can correct it (with back braces & stuff) - otherwise they can't.

I hate those medical & job application forms that ask you to disclose if you have ever had anxiety or depression - I find those unnecessary questions very invasive.

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Thanks for this tonight @MDT That's pretty much how I'm feeling about tomorrow morning - case conference with Administrative Appeals Tribunal and NDIS and my lawyers. Everything that can be done to prepare for it has been done and nothing I do tonight will change what happens tomorrow. So I've had a couple of drinks and I'm dancing to Gondwana Land's Boneman.