Living with Ourselves

Love this pic @Sophia1.

Oh @Sophia1, apologies for not being here more for you, i have pulled back much too, bloomin forget everyones history half the time then worry about puttin my foot in it (maybe thats what the 'spoiler' should be used for). I just pop in when i need company mostly, and vent sometimes and get some advise / different perspective on things... Your posts, ALL OF THEM, have been lengthy and thoughtful - you put a lot of yourself here and probably feel unappreciated a lot. I'm better with real faces (but even then remembering details of everyones lives is problematic). What am i trying to say? Oh yeah, PUT YOU FIRST HERE, and youre doing that. Harsh reality is - what we write belongs to someone else, forever. I've seen entire threads (my life) just disappear, ouch! Juat be you, pulling back to conserve energy is fine, i'm so glad youre not leaving. Maybe one day write a brief summary of you to remind me. Thats why i am LAPSES, i forget things, have lapses in memory. Dr says its the cPTSD, others say its DID, i call it stress. Whatever, being around me is can be hard i guess, only a handful of faithfuls here. Were all just do our best, what more can we do.
Hugs Sophia ❤

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Hello all who have commented and noted that have heard ...very much appreciated...

just come back from medical appointment...and now having lunch waiting for building inspector to turn up...I shall be making myself scarce...cannot cope with seeing anybody really at the moment...

apart from my younger son coming up to see me after he finishes work...about an hour and a half drive so am ever so grateful for his efforts as always....he means the world to me ...as does my other "family member""..love the two of them more than words can say...they are my life...my husband too..my children are an extension of me ...a very deep love...unconditional for me...

sorry ...very emotional...responding to other threads aforementioned is a very emotional move for me...something that I need to do for them..equally important for me....I cant make a difference in my "family member" world under present circumstances...so I can reach out and offer help to others in similar circumstances....

no intention to trigger anyone...should I have said that at the beginning..I will go back and write that now..done...

@Former-Member

please only read this response....

I know from reading your posts on the other thread in relation to your dad...how confused your mind is..

I have no expectations for you to remember my history...

Yes you have had much sadness...far too much sadness...you are still in a precarious situation and you choose to stay to be there for your dad....your love is endless...

no need to worry about when ..if ...where you pop in...you are the most important person to you...

snap...we both have said the same to each other...we now have to both listen to each other and put this into place don't we..

I will talk to you one day a little about my history under a different user name...now is not the time for that...for either myself or you...

I want to let you know that you matter as a person....you are so much more than you realise...allow yourself to value who you are.....not easy when have had many setbacks in life....verbal abuse...mental unwellness....all adds up and can be devastating to self esteem..

most importantly though is that it is never too late to rebuild our self esteem...to learn to listen when others compliment us (this is very hard...know this only too well)

lastly to congratulate ourselves regardless of the rest of the world....when we accept that we have given so much love and support to others...we are just as deserving of that love ourselves...

I hope that my epic reply has not confused you further...

big hug lapses xxx

love the picture @Sophia1

Letting you know I am still listening and still here with you. You can only do whst you are capable of doing at this time @Sophia1 and that is enough