Living with Ourselves

I smiled an understanding smile with your sideways post, mind neither up nor down. @Sophia1 . Sending some of these. 💕💜💕💜💕👍👍

@Maggie

lovely that you get me so to speak

brings a smile to my face also...

I am struggling

Husband and self at house about to eat lunch that I had just made and delivered..

Friend pulled up ..unusual...offering to go away for a few days..

husband announced no can do as full on painting..

friend then divulged in passing had read in newspaper a certain person had been cremated privately ..

our close friend!!... had been socialising with and having over for meals and a few wines at our place whilst in recovery..

had respected situation and sent intermittent texts of love and support.

sent one today prior to news..

gobsmacked...left house...home crying my eyes out...disbelief...

after husband and I held our glasses to celebrate such a beautiful soul...received text message thank you from husband will be in contact after following through with her wishes..

oh gosh..he does not know that we have only just head of her cremation let alone passing..

I am an absolute mess..

now family member has just phoned about something in the newspaper and I have had to firmly state that I am grieving and cannot deal with what is happening in the world...

then I think about a programme that I watched on SBS tonight where a mother is disabled as a result of a stroke and had been denied NDIS twice..

What!!!

Come on Sane you are a large organisation...

speak up

make a difference...

I am tired of trying to...

@Sophia1 💜💜💜💔💔💔

Hello folks

I am struggling just as much today as I was yesterday..

yesterday more in shock..

today numb..

I do feel that being on the forums now is not helping me.

I am treading on eggshells.

I think that my real world and this world are becoming confused.

I feel as though I need to be there for certain people on here.

This has replaced my being there for certain people in my real world where I have set some personal boundaries on some occasions.

I am grieving and sensing a huge loss...many triggers ...

I need to do this within my real world.

I wish each and everyone of you whom I have come to know so well..a better state of mind and some comfort from your struggles.

I will think of you. I will not tag anyone for fear of leaving someone out. part of the numbness.

this way you can feel that you are included in my thoughts..

I will say goodbye for now...not sure when I will be back

I need time for me now...reclaim my personal space..

I am having extra counselling

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Dear @Sophia1 Sending caring thoughts to you trusting that you will 'weather another storm'. So sorry about your most recent loss. Totally understand your need to step back and do as much self care as you need. Great to hear you also have some extra counselling arranged. Thinking of you, as always.

Sherry 💕

Hi @Sophia1 ,
I'm very sorry to read about your friend's death. Loosing a friend can be painful and it sounds like the news was a real shock to you yesterday. If taking a bit of time out from the forums seems like the right thing for you now, then that's great that you can identify that. It's also thoughtful that you've let your forums friends know you may be absent from the forums for a while.

I'm not sure exactly what your reference to treading on eggshells relates to but – as always – please know that you can contact the forums team via email if you would like some support with relationships/interactions on the forums: team@saneforums.org

@Sophia1 Thinking of you. 💜💜💕💕

@Sophia1 Forgot to add the pic. 💜💜