Living with Ourselves

Hi @Sophia1 @Maggie @Exoplanet

I'm a deep thinker too, always have been. My psychologist said I think too much.

Apparently I dissociate a lot (daily), due to childhood trauma (spanning decades).

Dissociation is a survival response - often unhelpful as an adult, because it can make it hard for me to "engage with people" (or opportunities).

Dissociation also keeps my trauma memories suppressed (out of awareness) - which I don't want, because I don't remember most of my life.

I'm looking forward to recovering (& remembering) my memories - no matter how unpleasant.

Because that will help me to "integrate myself" (feel more whole) - & I'm sure there are happy memories in there (they're not all scary ones).

Adge

Hello @Adge @Maggie @eudemonism

Dissociation is a tricky condition...experienced differently by each human being..

A natural response ....a safety mode..

I am not sure that it is possible to recall all of our memories..

We can look at photographs and feelings, thoughts can emerge.

Sometimes the more we try to recall certain periods of our lives the more we confuse the little that we do remember..especially if provoked by looking at photographs or listening to tales told by others..

Living in the now is far more comforting for us...noticing life around us in particular nature is a healthy way of keeping dissociation at bay.

We all have our own coping methods..

leaving this here for you all @Former-Member @outlander @Exoplanet

Hi @Sophia1 are you still there 💖

@Sophia1 i will think of solutions is the bit i like. Instead of being overwhelmed and worn down by all the tedious problems . Heading off to see doctor and get depot shortly. Another 28 day cycle begins. Their opinion and plan of action is sometimes/usually not what i want .

hello and hugs @eudemonism , @Sophia1 , @Former-Member , @Adge , @Maggie

how did you go at the doctor @eudemonism

Oh well @Shaz51 i had a big long vent about everything that's going wrong and all my problems. But basically it was a case of refer me to counsellor and administer my medication . I try to be polite tactical and diplomatic about approaching doctors but it never works out how I plan. They just administer meds give referal and send me on my way .

Hi @eudemonism

it sure sounds like you feel disheartened about doctors at the moment after what you have experienced. It is sad to hear that it has never working out for you. But I am sure there are doctors out there who are able to do much more than administer and refer. I encourage you to keep trying to find one that meets your needs.

warmest regards

Whitehawk

@Shaz51 I'm unhappy with the meds and the side effects . But between doctor and all the other chiefs everything is fine with Indian major suffer from side effects . So i think i gotta go with the counsellor referal and keep the doctor patient relatiobship to Thank you for the meds and see you next time. They're just one big spanner tbh with you .