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Living with Ourselves

Sophia1Senior Contributor23 Mar 2018, 1:29 pm AEDT

Living with Ourselves

hello @eudemonism @eth @outlander @Bunniekins @Mazarita @Silenus @NameUnknown @Grasshopper3 @patientpatient @soul @Former-Member @Determined @Shaz51 @Former-Member @Friendconnect @Teej @utopia @Queenie @Appleblossom @Zam @perseverer @Janna @Owlunar @Former-Member @Former-Member

First of all I wanted to let you know that I have conversed with all of you at some stage on both sides of the forum..

It was my intention to close two of my threads and change my name in the kindest way for all of you...

I commenced this process on the 12th March and today is the first day that I have access to actually post or respond to anyone....I was in the last couple of days able to register a new name and like some posts...

I am so sorry that my profile ended so abruptly that was definitely not my intention....

In fact if I had done it my way.. instead of thinking would be better to be guided through the process....I would have just written on one of my threads my reason for closing my account tagging you all in....then requested account to be closed and username put to bed so to speak

I have chosen to take this path in order to protect my family's sense of safety .. privacy...health..

Please let me reassure you that this has nothing to do with any members on here...

I have tagged each and everyone of you because you have given me support and invited me into a little of your worlds...priceless experiences...I have felt heard and valued on here....Thank you all so much..

Moving forward ...this is who I am now and hope to be able to converse on the forum living in the now not the past...therefore no mention of my previous username necessary...

If you do not know who I am...that is fine also...perhaps all of the above is not relevant for you..

take care

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eudemonismSenior Contributor16 July 2019, 12:49 pm AEST

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@Sophia1

It's just apart of being alone for the large part of each day. I dare say it would happen to anybody, who was left alone.

It's alright, you weren't to know ...

Todays theme is anger issues... myself bottling up anger up; means, they can be openly happy...

Eude

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outlanderSenior Contributor16 July 2019, 9:02 pm AEST

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hi @Sophia1
thank you for your support and for your kind words. it was lovely to read them after a hard day. ❤

the womens issues yes started a while ago but apparently its not high on list for specialists. I have to wait for them to call me for an appointment. The main thing i am concerned about is the changes in cells and consistently changing the last 3 tests so in a way i really want to see them but on the other hand i dont really want to know.
the waiting game is quite anxiety provoking for my op, i kinda cant wait for it to be over plus itll help with my pain as well.

yep, pops drs are in the loop with everything that is happening and he also has regular checkups (or more frequently if needed) hes ok with talking to his drs and things thankfully so i dont have to worry about how to get him to these appointments. hopefully thatll stay that way for a a while yet..

im sorry to hear that youve been feeling very emotional and anxious among other things, thats really tough to be managing. Is it ok if i ask if you have some supports that you can talk to about the things you cant here and for more support too?

is there anything that i/we could help you with even if its just listening?
you dont have to this alone ❤

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Sophia1Senior Contributor16 July 2019, 9:24 pm AEST

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hello @eudemonism

Yes I am hearing you loud and clearly.

Not wanting to hear any more suggestions or offers of relief.

I get that.

I have been there on and off. The last thing that you need is some strange female in a virtual world offering advice on how to feel better. Especially when you have been feeling this way for x number of years.

So what can I say.

I can say that I am listening and have an inkling of your feeling of being fed up.

I am listening that is one thing that I will not stop telling you Eude

💜 Not even sure if you like the hearts.

My words come from my heart.

Sophia

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Sophia1Senior Contributor16 July 2019, 9:33 pm AEST

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Hello @outlander

Good to read that you have your pop's doctors support on hand and that he is not unsettled by that.

Operations are never something to look forward to..always something to be glad to be over with..not that those sentiments will make you feel any better..

you might get to the stage like I did where you just don't want to hear about it..

Myself...support..

yes I have my therapist..

My husband supports me in his own beautiful way not always understanding but loving..

I am always busy crusading for my sons....

I achieve results no matter how long it takes with some issues..

family member is an ever changing situation...fragile and volatile..

you ask what you can help me with even if listening..

you do that already dear outlander..

every time you stop by or leave me a message you let me know that you are listening..

I receive more help on here by helping others than I do in asking for help...that is who I am and have always been..

I have my therapist with whom I discuss what has been going on..this works for me..

thank you

love Sophia 💜

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outlanderSenior Contributor16 July 2019, 9:51 pm AEST

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im glad to hear that you have some supports @Sophia1
im not surpsrised you achieve results no matter how long it takes, you seem like a good stong advocater. good quality to have indeed 💜

im more then happy to be here for and with you even when im short on words. you give so much to everyone else, its ok to ask for supports for yourself too xo

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eudemonismSenior Contributor17 July 2019, 12:16 pm AEST

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eudemonismSenior Contributor17 July 2019, 12:20 pm AEST

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@Sophia1

I just wanna get on with life, and get ahead... but often it's a case of, feeling stuck, and without any options ... because this is the way it's been designed... you know trapped in the system so to speak ...

Thank you for being so supportive and caring toward me... it's been a blessing to know you... it really has ...

Eude

P.s. i hope it all makes sense

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Sophia1Senior Contributor17 July 2019, 7:46 pm AEST

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Hello @eudemonism

Just wanted to let you in on a secret I have many of these blank posts all over the forums where I have written some detailed response only to go back to it after posting and delete it .

I am glad that I am not alone in this.

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Sophia1Senior Contributor17 July 2019, 8:32 pm AEST

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@eudemonism wrote:
@Sophia1

I just wanna get on with life, and get ahead... but often it's a case of, feeling stuck, and without any options ... because this is the way it's been designed... you know trapped in the system so to speak ...

Thank you for being so supportive and caring toward me... it's been a blessing to know you... it really has ...

Eude

P.s. i hope it all makes sense

Hello @eudemonism

You do make sense.

Wanting to get on with life and feeling stuck is a hard place to be..

It is more common than most of us realise though...mind issues or not..

It is definitely a part of western society.

One way of looking at it is to ask yourself how do you want to get on with life and be ahead?

What makes you laugh? what makes you smile?

what do you enjoy?

forget the materialistic western world...

the ocean? the colours..the smell. the feel on your skin..

Systems confine if we let them..

I was confined in a different way to you...now I challenge my mind...I go back to the basics. Gradually I am learning not to isolate myself yet again..

Nature is what saves me.

I notice the animals..the sky..the plant life...the wind...the clouds...they help me reconnect with me..this helps me feel slightly more at ease with other people...

Nature is worth far more than anything in dollar value.

Your kind words are so beautiful to receive ...thank you so much from the bottom of my heart...

Eude you are such a lovely person..

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AdgeSenior Contributor17 July 2019, 8:35 pm AEST

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Hi @Sophia1 I hope you are well.

Sorry I haven't said hello on this thread, recently.

Thinking of you.

Adge

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