Living with Ourselves

@Sophia1 Lovely to hear from you. Just dropping off something I wrote some months back when I couldn't express what was going on inside me. It's still the same for me, nothing comes outside my head.

@Owlunar@outlander always nice to bump into you wherever we pass each other.

@eudemonism@Adge Hi to you both also.

Hi @Maggie

Hi @Sophia1

I've been very quiet (not posting much) for weeks.

Not intentional, just very low energy & some scary health setbacks.

Adge

@Maggie

lovely that you wanted to share with me a piece of your own writing...

written during a time of introspection..

I can certainly relate to this state of mind...

I had written a piece in response

however am in my more often than not phase of self doubt and violation..

so it has been tucked away safely

I do know where this unsettling sense is coming from

interconnecting with other epic times in my life..

highlighted by words of others...

insincerity reigns..

thank you for being you and allowing me into your world in a way that you feel is safe

Hi @Sophia1

Just dropping in - I used to write a lot of poetry and lately I have been reading some poets aloud at night before I go to sleep - Walt Whitman, Robert Frost, Dylan Thomas and W B Yeats. I am trying to remember them so I can say them off by heart at appropriate moments - and I am enjoying it

We all have our introspective moments - maybe hooking into favourite poems can give us some peace but I have noticed I write more poems myself when like is really tough

I hope your day is the best it can be

Dec

@Sophia1@Sophia1

@Sophia1 Lots of these for you. 💕💜💕💜🐾🐾🐾Sometimes a paw hug is the best.

Thank you for being here for me

@Maggie@Owlunar @eudemonism@outlander@Adge

I believe that every turbulent stage we pass through is different as is in a different time zone...

we are different as have encountered change..time is forever moving

what seems familiar is past patterns of thought that continue to jump to the fore of our mind when our resolve is weakened..

our bodies let us know when we need to take a break ...

for me it is my overthinking...

my pattern of self doubt as a result of history ....

I have encountered panic attacks again where I have not been able to speak..

I remember mentioning on a thread that you started @Owlunar that I do not have them any more...

So much has happened in the last couple of years..

I know that I will get back up...not sure when that will be..

I have not mentioned this...I have seen my "family member"....this has had a huge impact on me...

So many feelings returning...emotions so strong...

I ask you to forgive me for not posting everyday as I know that you will....you all understand as have taken time out yourselves...

I do not feel safe on the forums when I am so vulnerable....so this is the safest place for me to be...

Whilst I am unable to support you all .....I am thinking of you....am so very comforted by your tags and messages...

take care in your own worlds and self discovery...journeys..

Sophia 💗💚💜💛❤