Living with Ourselves

I am so tired of expressing

I should be wise by now but it is not easier

I then think that I must be a failure

I am a big ACDC & Kiss fan @Sophia1 I'm very eclectic - a bit of lots of things.

I love the Rolling Stones.

Mostly it's emotional music that boosts my mood.

I need a boost just to get through today (feeling terrible).

I will try to send you a boost too...

Adge

I understand that you want to be acknowledged @Sophia1 and as far as the generally accepted idea that wanting attention is a bad thing - you are not after attention in that way either

Regardless though - is wanting attention a bad thing - if I go into a shop to purchase something I want attention, if I was to go to the ED with something wrong - say I had a fall - I would want attention

So yes - having been accused of seeking attention myself it was so totally out of place it was meaningless to me and went right over my head at the time and it was before I acquired a lot of this wonderful wisdom that is such a good idea - back then I was in a bad place and could have been called arrogant - which I think I was - but that was in a different time and all of that is past

Today though - and these threads - personally I only respond where I feel I can be useful and possibly the popular threads move so fast that what I might have had an answer or idea about an hour ago is so far back on the thread it's no longer relevant - I let it go - or if I do respond I feel the need to quote the post I am responding too

But you have raised a couple of questions in my mind - what makes a thread popular? and does it matter? These are rhetorical questions so no need to reply to them but think about it - some threads carry a lot of chatter which is important to the people in the conversation - and with a couple I do jump in wherever the convo is going - others - no - I don't.

Sometimes I will be following a thread because I am interested but refrained from joining in because it doesn't fit me - for whatever reason

But you are concerned about being accepted - as far as I am concerned you are - I like what you write and you are openly appreciative of my writing so it's really easy to "accept" you - and what you are writing about

This is a really safe place to write and express ourselves and our thoughts - the moderators are always there for help and I know from what I have read that the "popular" threads have been spoken about before

And I guess they are fast-moving because the people who read and write know each other well and are on-line more often than I am - which is okay

Dec

Very well said @Owlunar

That post is a mirror of how I feel in the real world at times....when am feeling very low...

I don't need more friends.....I do need acknowledgement and acceptance....

I have to remind myself that I cannot change the attitude of others...I have to remember this...

The virus has taken hold again...yesterday...slept in until 9.00 ish and laid on the settee all day...

Today I have been up since 9am and some breakfast....am going to get back into bed...

I realise that viruses zap all energy...domino effect....mind affected also..

take care all

look forward to some long chats with you @Owlunar when am feeling better...

good morning @Adge @outlander@eudemonism

a quick hello....short on words again...hoping that you are all looking after yourselves..

@Adge The rolling stones were my favourite band....

hope that the visit from your neighbour was pleasant...

take care all

Bless you all

Thank you @outlander @eudemonism @Owlunar @Adge @Appleblossom

your ongoing support and checking in....means so much

Hey Eude your caring response has brought tears to my eyes...

I have to be over this virus by friday otherwise I have been told that day test will be postponed....I just want it over and done with.,...so will be doing little....

Sophia