Living with Ourselves

Hello @outlander @Adge @Shaz51 @Owlunar @eudemonism@Teej@Sans911

Thank you for caring....

I always think that the power of a like can make all the difference sometimes in a person's world that is spiralling out of control...so thank you ...

I wrote on the rave thread as had been tagged over there...

so have cut and pasted to save some energy...

Well the road train that has been tailgating...stalking me for fome time now finally caught up with me on friday...

I have not felt this bad for years...

has to catch up eventually...

I am up now and have had breakfast....

I shall just break the time up into small segments and survive those..

I hate writing about these feelings when I am in such a bad way...they feel so despicable...too awful to share...for others to read...

So am going to work hard at getting through today...I think I need to get out in my car...I call it "my free spirit ride"...just go somewhere...

take care all...I know that you all have your own struggles which makes it mean all the more to me that you still take time out to show that you care...

sending you all love from the bottom of my heart

along with a huge group hug where I am in there too

don't enjoy seeing a movie on my own, unless it's DVD movie at home.--- I am with you there @Adge

Hugs @Sophia1

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Bad day @Sophia1?

It's time to join the club - the weather has been so rotten here over the weekend I am totally fed up - really - it has been the pits

I feel tail-gated by the rain-train - I have always hated being tail-gated with traffic - really bad when life does it to us

btw - I wonder how many hate writing about their feelings - being totally open about it - truly - I don't want to do it myself - but unless I read the rave thread I guess I am not going to know what you have posted there - what you have posted here is okay - I didn't mind reading it

In fact except that it has been years since you felt so bad I can say this is the worst day I have had this winter and that's saying something

I don't know where you live - if you are in Melbourne you know what the weather has been doing - wow - last night some of the storms were so bad I felt a bit scared and I am not usualy scared by the wind and rain - last night it was really bad though - and I could feel the cold air coming through the window.

Maybe there was hail - I didn't get up to see

It seems you got up late and I hope you went out to let your free spirit free in your car - I would do that if I had a car - I used to do that - it's wonderful to escape from the four walls - I understand that

Breaking up the day into small parts is a good idea - so is reading for a large parts of the day - I fell asleep watching DVDs of Downton Abbey -

Consider I joined in the group hug - sending some extra hugs if I can find one

Dec

Well - if not a group hug - this is a big hug

@outlander@Shaz51@Maggie @Adge @Owlunar@eudemonism

ahh you are all so beautiful...far more of value than you realise...

responding with a like is so much more than enough..there is no measurement in my eyes...bless you all

@Owlunar I am overwhelmed with your honesty and thanking you at the same time for recognising mine...opening up with our feelings is such a huge ...gigantic effort....beyond measuring...I keep using that word don't I...that is what society does though...

I hope that I have played a part in allowing you to be open with your feelings...

this is what I strive for...

I was denied the expression of my feelings for so so long...if I can hint at the opportunity of this and then instigate some exchange in opening up I am happy...

@Owlunar you have started to reveal a life of such achievement...

I feel inadequate...even though I have the intelligence...was accepted into university..I was unable to follow through...the controlling environment that I then lived in quickly banished any achievements or signs of furthering my level of education..I was frozen and led by those who were dominant in my life...I was in a haze.,..

I welcome your interesting stories...

I love this telling of life between each other...

So to all of you I got through today....I asked my husband to go out for a drive...we did that...met up with younger son..went out for a meal at a pub in the next locality which is probably my favourite...so down to earth...I can tell that there are many lived experience people there...I love the food as well...am thinking of becoming a member just to support them..

I have no idea how I will be tomorrow...as I know from experience that when down so low.;..sudden highs are not necessarily the best outcome...however...I got through the day...

I hope that I don't know what actually...that some no matter how small element of light reached you..

I truly feel for all of you...

huge group hug including me ... apologies about the pathetic choices of emoticons not that I relate to them anyway...

For a moment there I felt a part of something and then when I checked I found that the like was from a moderator....

so I now feel that I am not understood any more....my tears flow more profoundly..

I have just been moderated..this is no disrespect towards the moderator as I realise this is your role...

this is just back to me as my reaction...my sensitivity...which I know is beautiful to have....yet at the same time is so painful..

hello lovely @outlander

how do I start the conversation..

I don't want to ask how you are...

I have read that you are struggling..

You already know that I have asked after your welfare...

You are more than likely fed up of people asking .....despite the fact that every single person has your best interest at heart..

so thank you for being here with me in my place of nowhere

I hope that you are not in a place of nowhere...

aside from my being so deep

thank you for your caring...

hello lovely @outlander

how do I start the conversation..

I don't want to ask how you are...

I have read that you are struggling..

You already know that I have asked after your welfare...

You are more than likely fed up of people asking .....despite the fact that every single person has your best interest at heart..

so thank you for being here with me in my place of nowhere

I hope that you are not in a place of nowhere...

hhm I keep getting the not acceptable ...not sure why

aside from my being so deep

thank you for your caring...