My journey

Bring it on @Zoe7 Hope you enjoy you’re night

Hope you do too Hon @Former-Member

Hi @Zoe7 today has been a downer.. went for a coffee and came home again with little one. Literally can’t eat last few days. Think some things are hitting me and then alot of the time I am clouded and then numb again or shut downy.

The house inspection is tomorrow, really hoping I get an answer soon. It’s been raining on and off today, so we have just watched movies and not much else. Trying to pay some bills down. Hope you had a good day.

Spoke to a few collectors today and I think I am going to get more some legal advice regarding debts in my name apparently as the account holder though I was living with my other with all four bills before I got left with it everytime he got his need

Really stressy at the moment because I have my own s**t to deal with, with my daughter whilst he has caused nothing but intentional harm and debt I still pay off for three of us lol @Zoe7 plus my own

Tomorrow is another day

Not good that you haven't eaten @Former-Member Try to have something small tonight - you need to keep your energy up Hon.

I hope your house inspection goes ok and you finally get an answer from the landlord.

We have had rain and hail here on and off - I would not be surprised if it snows tonight - it is very cold. It is not supposed to be any better tomorrow so I will need to rug up to get to the pool. It is so warm in the pool that I won't feel the cold once I get there but will when I leave to come home.

That is really tough having debts that someone else should be helping with - no fair at all @Former-Member

Yes tomorrow is another day and let's hope a better one for us both

I definately can’t eat at the moment because I feel too sick. I wish it was snowing here @Zoe7 how good would a snow ball fight be lol right now. Could take my anger out. In air

seriously I just don’t get any of it. Think to my self I wasted how many years for nothing but s**t in return really lol sorry I will scream otherwise now I probably do that to others

i just think well you obviously know I am the one that’s going to have to pay all of it whilst looking after you’re kid... at the same time some times I have even gone without clothes food etc been homesless and I think seriously you can’t afford to go without anything for once in you’re f**in life either, it just makes my blood boil and they hound me!! Oh at all times of the night Some times I cry over it but they have been understanding when I have fired up as well lol. That’s why it is also harder to move on because I am stuck with it lol. Relationships are s*it

I will keep repeating to myself tomorrow is another day

It is so hard having to take on those debts that you haven't incurred on your own @Former-Member. Life would be so much easier without having to deal with past relationships lol - we are both haunted by those

Keep telling yourself tomorrow is another day - I am trying to do exactly the same but they don't seem to get any easier - just more shite to deal with.

As you can probably gather I am not in the best place myself tonight - haven't been for a few days. It doesn't take much for me to feel down and I still haven't heard from HR about what I need to do to return to work so much like you and your landlord ...it is a waiting game. If I haven't hear anything tomorrow I will have to call them again as I see my pdoc on Wednesday and it would be good to know by then what we need to do.

Yeah forever scarred -never get married.

@Zoe7 you sound a bit down and out.

I hope you hear what’s going on

I didn't need to get married to be forever scared Hon - that happened anyway - felt like I had nowhere to go and no-one to turn to as I didn't knw what would happen to me if I said anything or if anyone found out what he was really like. So trust me on this one - I get it! The only saving grace for me, and what is so different for you, is there were no children involved - that is why I have so much admiration for you dealing with everything and raising your daughter as well

Yes I am feeling quite down tonight but as you said @Former-Member - tomorrow is another day!

I totally get how someone can push you away, drag you back in, treat you like shite and yet you don't/can't leave them. It is shite and I don't think you ever get over it, you just find ways to deal with it - otherwise you find you don't have a life at all.

I hope you get some sleep tonight Hon - will be thinking of you @Former-Member