My journey

My mind is a wreck @Zoe7 my head is dark and I can’t get out of it.

I will try and distract myself today

Feeling quite sick from stressing out. You sound like a pretty strong person just need to distant myself from all the mess is my head today really feeling exhausted

Distractions are good when you feel like that @Former-Member

You have strength within you Hon - you have had to have to get through what you have and raise your daughter - don't doubt that part of you because it is obvious. I know it is hard when your mind is being negative but distractions can help you get out of your head a bit. Do something nice for yourself today Hon

I am still very tired so won't be doing much myself - my football team does play this afternoon so I will take time out to watch the game - that is my self-care activity for today.

Feeling extremely anxious I feel like I am in another world just even communicating.

It’s going to be one of those days where I can’t eat. I don’t think I’d be capable raising another child because I am barely capable at the moment and haven’t felt like I can parent since all this c**p & physiological stuff with the bullying. I am getting really angry again

One day i hope to be in a better place mentally. If I lose my daughter all I can say is I swear I tried and fought like hell!!!! @Zoe7

You are a fighter Hon and you do everything you can to look after your daughter @Former-Member

Days like this are simply ones to do what you have to to get through - even though you don't feel like eating you need to to keep up your energy - lack of energy and depression feed off each other and make us feel worse so keeping up your energy is so important.

Getting angry is ok but don't let it consume you as that is not a good place to be either. What are you doing to try to distract yourself today?

I am so angry that I cry afterwards!! @Zoe7

Last night my chest was literally racing. Everyone has sooooo much to say no one asks if you are OK then when one does in real life I act ok anyway!!! 🤦🏻‍♀️What is wrong with me!!

I am going to clean to take my anger out on that and just get a coffee and go home. Really really annoyed at myself.

Don't be so hard on yourself Hon - you can't control the actions of others but you can take control of your own emotions. That does not mean that you don't feel what you are feeling but allow yourself to feel angry and then move on. Take some deep, slow breathes to help reduce your heartrate.

We let other's get to us so much because we are used to being hurt and don't expect it will ever change - that is a hard position to feel you are in all the time and is so draining - that is when you have to do things just for yourself ...like get a coffee, go for a walk, make a nice lunch etc. ...things you enjoy @Former-Member

But it already has controlled me with other people so it’s too late @Zoe7

Now I am just f**d up and always will be not normal. I don’t expect a few to change.

Showed they haven’t. I haven’t either.

Have a house inspection here in two days, half tempted to leave the house trashy so we can leave cause I am probably not going to get a respond after the way I spoke to them after going off my head. I just went to get a coffee, have a rather large headache

I am not surprised you have a headache after all the stress you have been under. Take care of yourself @Former-Member

It’s about to storm here hope it does all night @Zoe7 enjoy the tele

It rained here earlier and has been cold since @Former-Member Think I will be up for an early night tonight. Hope you can get your daughter settled early and relax youself.